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Thursday, August 31, 2006

maybe i'll be like the suyuan in the joy luck club. I'll be killed by my own thoughts.

been rainy all the day long, and its so nice to sleep in this kinda weather. haha. reached sch before 7 today to get the food delight stuff ready. glad to know that most of my food pple were in the canteen already. =D and thank you girls, for your efforts. I really appreciate your co-operation which made my job so much easier. Thank You, azimah, diyana, atiqah, nat, emily, fanghui, evonne, mas, nadia, aminah, azmira, amalina, jaslin, faith, yizhen, michelle, amanda and did i leave anyone else out? oh and of course the whole of 3L1 bellyjeans! haha and the guys who helped out on wed and to jiten for organising the whole thingy. HAHA im so proud of you pple! and the food we had was yum yum! YUM SENG and HOTDOG!! XD haa..

daisies... holidays have started. frm today onwards. and my whole week is PACked and i say PACked. surprisingly, not as much homework as usual... still manageable i guess. God is gracious! He knew i'll be so busy, so He lightened my load. =) a pity i don't get to help out at sunshine camp though. because of, nevermind. and i cannot imagine who much we have to chiong after sept holidays because its EOYs!

will you be there to lend me your shoulder if i should shed any tears?

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
9:49 PM

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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

haha i dun really know what to post for now. just that super busy days have been going by. XD

everything's almost settled for food delight tmr! cant wait! and there's 6B gathering on friday! =D and then, fellowship games on sat! and after which, would be grandma's birthday celebration!

finished wrapping my beautiful chocolates for the teachers.. haha..

feeling oh so high nowadays.

and i have a nice version of beauty and the beast.. very catchy. thanks to amanda's (loh) disney refresh CD! =D

As you mind your earthly duties, keep Heaven in mind.

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
10:09 PM

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Friday, August 25, 2006

do you think its easy for me as well?

do you think that i've never felt that way before?

do you think i had someone who made me feel like they would listen?

look you're really not alone. we all go through different stages in our life that will either bring us up or pull us down. you know how much i really wish to help? because i can feel your pain, i've experienced similar situations before.

i'm sorry i can't change her or the way she feels or the way she treats you, maybe she is going through a different stage in her life. moodswings? maybe.. i don't know.. i know you're upset at things that happen, like you try so hard, used to enjoy friends and now its a burden to you. do you know that i've felt that way before? it struck me so hard, i wondered where my friends went to. just because of some misunderstanding and well i dunno how to phrase it, something went wrong, which ended up getting 4 pple hurt. and i was shocked and hurt of course. it took me awhile, and alot of internal struggles to get myself out of it. and when i learnt to look at things more positively, it worked for me. i wonder if it'll work for you.

it takes alot of strength, alot of determination, alot of patience and alot of LOVE.

and i know how homework and everything just piles you down.. no matter how, you just cant seem to get them cleared. and you have so many responsibilities and yah! piano.. i know how it feels... well, i cannot make homework any lesser for you, i cannot take over ur responsibilities, i cannot play the piano for you or do your theory homework, but i can just tell you one thing. that you are capable of accomplishing all that you need to do. because, GOD MAY SEND A LOAD, BUT HE NEVER SENDS AN OVERLOAD. everything God has for you, He knows you have the strength and can find the strength in Him to do so. (:

i want you to be strong, really strong and i mean really strong. the days ahead may become even tougher, esp when we enter sec 4. and sec 3 is a time we build up our friendship that we may be there for each other, and not to compare results. results are one thing, it shld not affect our friendship in any way. maybe we should come up with this rule, that we should not ask each other what marks we get for any test. haha because you've done ur best, its either you improve or maintain.

i really wish i could help you but this is all i can do. to listen and to care. because you're my friend, and i love you.

enjoy camp!! (:

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
9:35 PM

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Monday, August 21, 2006

Be as hopeful as chicken little. stay strong

Todayisanewday. =)

I still miss obs! i miss cookies!!

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
9:38 AM

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Sunday, August 20, 2006

I'm back! Tada! and i look like i haven't washed my face for dunno how many centuries.. HAHA serious la! i'm really tanned! although i applied sunblock but i still turned out like this. but, its good. haha

oh mann, really miss the wild, really miss my watch: cook aka cookies!, really miss sleeping at the windy beach, really miss KAYAKING!!!! really miss pitching tents in the dark, eating our very own cooked food, the land expedition, my first powder bath, and times my watch and i were laughing at the same thing with someone ignorant of whats going on. haha, OBS was so fun!! overall kayaking was the best! it was a great achievement the whole mobile B made! i like what jianhui has on his msn, The sun is strong, the current is strong, but we are stronger.

totally agree with that, thru this whole camp, we've all realised that we're stronger that what we think we are. its a really good camp, really really good. i love cook!

and at times i enjoyed myself, i thank God that i did not forget that God was with me all the way, and has given me such a wonderful time. Thank you Lord for the good weather too. (:

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
8:24 PM

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Sunday, August 13, 2006

I'm off to OBS for a week!

will be back on friday! - 18/o8/o6.

boy am i excited and i managed to stuff my things into one bag! thats like so rare! HAHA i shld try doing so for youth camp. hehex..

well, pray for us at obs! to not fall sick! haha

and to all going for obs, have loads of fun! in the wild! =D

i'll miss my family, esp my sissy and samson! and von! and all my churchpals! will be keeping you all in my prayers at night. (:

this time, i hope i'll be back really CHAOTAH!!

I will survive, I will survive! I'm a survivor, i'm gonna make it! I'm a survivor... err.. paiseh, don't know the lyrics. hehe...

lets hope 3L1 won't meet mrs chiu there. HAHA... oh yah, and while i'm gone, ON 15 August 2006- HAPPY BIRTHDAY ENLING!!!!!! HUGS!!!

ohmans i can't wait i can't wait. [ i can't help myself is a nice song! ] i can go star gazing! WHEE!!!

just a lil verse for GREAT encouragement X)
When i said, " My foot is slipping," your love, O Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul. psalm 94:18-19

and all the very best to all sec 4s taking prelims or whatever tests that you have. =) and to the p6 kiddies, all the best for your prelims too! and PSLE ORAL! don't pronounce sugar as something else.... muahahaha

till then, tatatatatatataa!

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
8:08 PM

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

i'm glad that my family and my relatives are getting back together, well at least i think. hopefully nth of the fake, because i don't like the fake.

yesterday had half day because of national day celebrations. emcee-ing was fun and well, amirul and i were glad its finally over. had to join grace and syahir in leading of the community singing as well. many of them were high during the "we are singapore" song! haha.. just waved their hands in the air and sang so loudly... cheering comp was good! haha reminds me of the good old days when i was in 203! and we had to stay back for amaths. = till abt 12 smth.. dan nat and i went to em's house to change because we're going to ps for OBS shopping! *grins! met fh at lot 1 mrt at 1.20pm dan took the train down.. was feeling quite sleepy actually.. plus the heavy amaths textbook. haha

we all were so hungry so once we reached, it was food! had KFC.. ate till i was so full.. the cheesey fries la.. haha.. yup dan we headed to carrefour! nat and em wanted to buy fbt shorts, fh wanted to buy trackpants while i bought fbt shirt. we spent abt half an hour there just trying on to see which is better. HAHA and decided we had to move on.. so stopped by at guardian and i bought my blotter and deordorant! dove one! nice nice smell... dan went to watsons.. to buy.. hehehe... and where did we go next.. oh yah a few shops cause em wanted to buy shirts.. but couldn't find cheap ones.. dan i went to visit my jigsaw puzzle shop! and fh went to this bookshop.. so many books.. haha dan i sat down on the floor and couldn't get up.. my legs were killing me with all the shopping.. what to do, i'm not really a shopper.. HAHA

dan we went to bloomington.. to get some nice gifts.. and headed for causeway point cause em still could not find shirts.. and i wanted to get shorts..

nat headed to cityhall to meet her mum. dan on the train, em, fh and i went super crazy! laughing like mad! and this emily.. every stop the train stops at, she'll ask me if we reach already.. haha... so funny.. and we were laughing at this monkey. XD and practically everything!

finally we reached causeway.. couldn't find any shorts.. =( and we walked round and round.. dan went to minibits cause em wanted to buy hairbands while i wanted clips cause apparently, i lost mine.. haha.. but there wasn't any clips! and we saw the retro hairbands! so funny.. and emily kept asking me which colour she shld choose.. i want see the other stuff also cannot.. keep asking me to wait.. in the end we laughed like mad. dan emily decided to go back to giodano to buy the $5 shirt.. quite nice.. in the end we both bought one same colour.. we call it the lovers pair. HAHA

dan we made it out of the shopping centre at 6:45 because emily wanted to watch the 7pm show. fh and i were like diao diao diao... laughed like mad on the train again as usual. dan ding dong, reach yewtee already.. so bye bye. haha

managed to finish my lit essay on tues itself. so i'm unburdened! wee!

and today.. was forced to wake up super early because going to beach with relatives and family.. wished i could sleep in though.. haha they pack and pack.. dan went there.. started drizzling.. and we settled down. all our stuff.. when von's family reached.. it poured so heavily! and it was super funny! i tink it was fun lor.. my mum and von's mum went to the toilet.. and before they could come back it rained so they were stuck there! HAHA! dan my dad and von's dad were like sharing one umbrella trying to fix up the mat to cover all the foodstuff. so funny! dan mama, samson, my maid and von's maid sought shelter at a pavilion with other pple while sam, von and i hid under the umbrella and tried to cover the food. and von stuffed her whole bag into the cooler with otah to keep it away from the rain! HAHa! it was so funny! water started collecting.. and sam took samson's scoop to scoop away the water.. and protect the nasi lemak. while von and i were like taking funny pics. when i get them, i'll post them. haha

finally by God's grace, the rain stopped. and my other relatives came.. we had quite abit of fun.. eating.. enjoyed the really strong wind.. after that, sam, von and i went to cycle.. as usual me and von took the double bike. and rode till our butts ached. we saw this water ski park thingy there. so cool! we were so engrossed in it that we crashed into a girl cycling! fortunately, no serious injuries tho the girl had some scratches.. and coincidentally she is from bethesda hall! haha.. sam recognised her.. hahaha..

made our way back.. and ate more. haha.. not long after, we left lor. took many funny pics. XD

now at home and so bored. sigh... maybe i should go watch tv.. well i don't know. i want to watch High school musical!

Happy National Day! Happy birthday to Grace, Melody, Wesley and Joan! anyone else? hee

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
4:23 PM

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Monday, August 07, 2006

feeling so random now. was pretty excited abt OBS this morning but apparently i'm not so about it now. got this pretty bad feeling and i have no idea why. will something happen?

yesterday was a funny day. there was the usual. morning worship, sunday school then home. morning ministry was good. by uncle william Koh. we must really have Faith and trust in God. during ss was also aunty beejoo's last lesson with us before aunty geok kim comes back. aunty beejoo's lessons are interesting. =) will miss her..
Praise You in this storm, was what i was reminded of.

and not before long, i had to leave the house with sam to meet min min at ps. going to the SA band concert thingy. met dar there too. and we had so much nonsense fun. haha! i miss the jiggysaw puzzle shop! my favourite shop where i can admire all the nice nice puzzles because i ain't got the money to buy them. but,,,, my house is gone! i couldn't find it anywhere, not even in the causeway point jigsaw puzzle shop! its gone! my beautiful puzzle house is gone! =(

haha okay than there was like chiong all the way to esplanade cause baba, amy and titus were waiting for us already. min, sam and i were wearing lady slippers( i dunno what to call them la) and so we were so noisy cause when we run, there are loud " plick pliak plick pliak" aiyoyo so paiseh. it was so hard to run with the slips that i simply took them off and ran barefooted in the shopping centre and pass city link. can you imagine? haha well, so you can see i'm one who doesn't really care abt image. heee

the concert was alright. i enjoyed the copacabana most! it was so lively. haha and the SAJS kids were so cute! imagine my brother going to SAJS next time.. well, that's where my parents have in mind. my dad was an all SA boy according to him, duno whether to believe or not. haa and min fell asleep because she was so tired, my sis did doze off for awhile too. haha... baba and amy were so excited when they played the moulin rouge. it was good anyway. just that i felt sleepy too. haha

and we made our way home and guess what! I saw Michael! ( in case you're wondering who, its one of the les thespians crew, during my beauty and the beast show ) he was like " Hi teapot." and i was like Oh my " Hello!!!" haha.. so caught up a little. can't wait till we organise an outing for the musical peeps. if only i got to see brina because she's so nice, but she stays at katong. and mike stays at yewtee! what a coincidence.

and slept and today sch as usual. tmr's half day, going obs shopping at ps with natty, emmy, xy, fh and maybe ry. got a list of stuff i wanna buy. i can see my puzzle shop again!

Lord, i committ this week into Thy Hands, and even though my whole week is packed with activities, which if i don't handle properly may draw me away from you, i pray Lord, that i may always remember to have you first in my heart and pray without ceasing, looking forward to eternal life with You.

i really like this scene in Aladdin,
" Riffraft, streetrat, i don't buy that. if only they'd look closer....
would they see a poor boy? No siree...
They'll find out that there's so much more, to me..... "
it has a nice tune and nice words. i really love it.

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
6:45 PM

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Thursday, August 03, 2006

i'm sorry i was not strong enough and did not acknowledge that God had a reason for putting me there. i know He has. be humble mor.. be humble and tolerant.

i guess the very one thing i was really upset abt was the one where somebody was rude to somebody. i don't know why but i just cannot tolerate this type of rudeness, where you use vulgarities on someone. no offence but i think vulgarities is really not necessary. so if you wanna use, just be prepared that i'll shout at you. HAHA
Don't let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouth.

tmr's last day for common tests and tmr is eng and chinese EOY oral exam! yikes! can't wait to get over and done with it. dan i can sleep in on sat!!

OBS coming soon, i'm so excited! abt the adventure and everything, but when i think of the dirt and the few days i have to endure without bathing ( i'm quite a clean freak)... *shudders... i told Nat to bring my body back.. because i'll probably die there because of the dirt. haha! going obs shopping with emmy, natty, ah peng, xinyi and fh on tues! got alot of things to buy mann.. XD ahah and huihui so naughty.. we were like saying if we were in the same group, what will happen and what it will be like.. dan she say she'll die cause everynight she'll hear a female ghost singing. get it?

most likely will be going sentosa with von's family. my family and their family! yay!

i really need to rely on God.

Grace is an unearned blessing given by God to an unworthy recipient. Thank you Lord, for loving such an unworthy sinner like me.

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
4:22 PM

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Tuesday, August 01, 2006

uh whats wrong with me

was i wrong?

i'm hopeless...

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
4:58 PM

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i'm angry because i care.

okay so what if everyone's doing it, and it doesnt really matter to you or to the 'victim', ITS RUDE YOU KNOW. ITS VERY RUDE AND I WON'T TOLERATE SUCH RUDENESS. THATS WHY I SHOUTED AT YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE SO RUDE AND SHOULD SAY SORRY TO WHOEVER YOU WERE RUDE TO.

and can't you people just keep quiet or LOWER DOWN YOUR VOLUME. WHICH PART OF LOWER DOWN YOUR VOLUME DON'T YOU PEOPLE UNDERSTAND HAR.

i don't like to shout, nag or scold anyone but when things get out of hand i have to. because its all part of DISCIPLINE. there's a time to play and a time to be serious. CALL ME WHATEVER YOU WANT I DON'T CARE as long as i know what i'm doing.

but right, if you people don't even bother abt yourself, your environment, your work, than why should i bother? i tried so hard. just to get you guys to hand in forms on time, remind you all on certain stuff. convey msgs frm tchers to you guys. but you all don't appreciate, thats fine with me. but don't you people care to have some responsibility? RESPONSIBILITY.

okay you can say im paranoid or expecting too much. but is handing up ur own work on time, taking care of ur stuff, making sure the area arnd you is clean, expecting too much? is it? tell me is it expecting too much from you?

it is not fair if the WHOLE class gets penalized because of some monkeys in the class, so can't you people just be more considerate? homework period.. yes you can talk, but LOWER YOUR VOLUME. DONT UNDERSTAND IS IT?

sorry for being so straight to the point. but i have to, because i'm tired of being a labourer for pple who don't care.

i never gave up, but now, i give up.

try being chairperson if you think its so easy. go ahead, take my badge.

Mormor ~~thought~~ at.
3:57 AM

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