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Thursday, March 30, 2006
so many things happened recently! but there's no time to blog abt it and my com's lagging like mad. arggh!!
firstly i wanna say that G-day is really scary... haha
secondly my feet are going to hurt soon.
thirdly i dunno how to do my emaths
lastly i better get my butt outta here and do my homework.
bubyes!
Mormor thought at.
8:34 PM
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006
back to sch! boo!! boo!! boo!!
hahaha. okay so we're like into the 2nd term already... my how fast is that.. haha im like enjoying my grapes now and finished my hwmk. havent used the com for quite awhile too... and i seriously think my eye sight is like detereoriating. =
gotta do amaths later. so sian... 6 papers to do you know! 6 papers! actually had the hols to finish them but how to finish 6 in one week.. so tcher give us till like friday. wahaha and i probably won't finish it by then oso. so nvm.
cant wait for sat... got yp outing! yay!!!
everyday also feel sleepy.. time for a haircut i tink.. my hair's growing outta place... soon it'll be like a bush! which reminds me of my public speaking.. i dunno why.. i was talking like a train! haha! too fast. jus basically crapped on...
okay. gonna do stupid amaths lerhs. garh!!! gosh i've got cravings for chocs again!
oh yarh, 20 march: Happy birthday dave!! =D
23.o3.o5
Mormor thought at.
8:12 PM
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Friday, March 17, 2006
its friday already! boos!! ): because holidays gonna be over in like about 3 days time. boo!! ): i want my holidays!!! boo!!
alriteyy... one week has gone by so QUICKLY.. i would say TOO quick.. havent enjoyed much yet!! sighs.. okays.. lets start from sunday.
12march: did some homework in the morning.. dan later got ready for the sunday school anniversary thingy. it was like so great!! felt so happy for all those who went up to get prizes.. was clapping and cheering like a mad girl. haha! People need the Lord and You are the light of the world!! =D my whole fam went ta see.. dan after that went to the chalet at pasir ris.. for a 3 day 2 night stay. which was like awesome. haha! the room was so super cold.. din really do much cos at night already.. nat stayed over the 1st nite.. yvonne and i talked till like abt 3am plus.. dan go sleep..
13march: woke up.. with my stupid sinus acting up again. argh. dan did bio hmwk. haha dan went for lunch with mum, samson, von and maid.. dan later von and i go back chalet.. went abit siao.. dan sam came back frm trng.. sam come back.. my turn to go... had rehearsals! gar! but lucky director nvr come! haha!! but i was so super disappointed in myself larh.. cos the dance instructor took over.. dan practising the be our guest scene.. got one part im supposed to sing.. she keep asking me to sing louder.. i cant sing any louder! end up i was like shouting la! i jus cant sing!! nvm.. my whole mood was like.. durhh.. dan later dad fetched me back to the chalet.. had steamboat.. uncle hing and aunty nancy came.. dan we watch the 9pm channel 8 show. super funny.. dan later sam von and me go for our nightwalk. haha stopped by cheers to get some snacks.. ate.. laughed like mad.. wanted to walk in pasir ris park but von scared. haha! kae.. dan we sat down near some fishpond.. and talked. we took quite abit of pics too.. and some silly movies. they were so funny!! haha. totally went mad larh.. dan later go back chalet.. slept awhile before waking up and went for our macs breakfast.. wasnt at 4am.. it was 5am. haha =D
14march: Happy Birthday Brandon!! heehee.. came back frm chalet.. von came to our house too.. dan we all slept like pigs frm 11 smth till like 4smth in the afternoon.. dan watch ella enchanted. it was so nice! dan later von had to go liao. sad.. and what did i do later? i cant rmb larh. haha
15march: did homework in the morning.. dan afternoon meet enling(jie) at causeway.. for some shopping.. bought presents! haha. and walked arnd till our legs ached. and jaws ached. took neoprints..haha so funny.. jie's got a nice structure.. dat really made me laugh.. went to see bedsheets.. haha.. the jigsaw puzzle shop was super nice!! ahhhhh.. falling in love with the shop.. and the puzzles.. wee.. sure had fun! dan later go home.. dan go em's house for bio project..
16march: did hmwk in morning too.. so sian.. dan later rush to sch for the rehearsals. it was rather okay. haha kinda fun dat day.. director still havent heard me sing. wahaha! was jus wondering if i will really lose my role... oh mann.. haha nvm. dan later at 6pm i chiong outta sch.. headed towards eunos.. going east coast for the bbq thingy. haha.. and yah thanks alot. =) somebody will just know why... hee.. dan reach there.. was super hungry!! and my legs were like gonna break. haha so ate and ate.. elsia and sam kept eating bread! if only i had more time to just sit down and enjoy the beach.. the waves.. the stars.. and that really scary red moon. haha.. dan later aunty mich fetched us to airport to pick jannelle up.. we did something fun at the airport. haha was so tired.. but enjoyed the day!
17march: which is like today! did nth much.. finished chinese in the morn.. dan von came. haha lucky she came.. if not i would be bored to death.. laughed so much today! wee.. haha and im so happy cause after a gruellling afternoon i finally finished bio project!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!! fixing the jigsaw puzzle.. with sam and von.. was so hard.. till now still fixing.. sam's doing it actually. haha. friday gonna be over so fast. nooooo...
realised alot of stuff.. i duno.. din noe i actually think so much... oh well.. amaths.. i've given up. haha.. tmr still got piano in the morning.. wad! sighs...
till then. tata.
15/o3 jus passed.
Mormor thought at.
9:06 PM
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i'll be updating later at nite. haha! this is so lame. XD
Mormor thought at.
12:07 PM
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Friday, March 10, 2006
sometimes things in life just simply get you down... you'll just be all in despair.. not knowing what to do... why things are like that.. what to do... how.. why oh my... you cant even tell the real from the unreal. and you wonder the meaning of the word "friends". you wonder why problems keep piling up and you just cant seem to find a solution to them. you wonder why.. there's always competition.. everywhere.. everyone wants to be the best. how is that ever possible?
life can be so oh harsh... and yet so oh great... you'll wonder ur purpose for existing on this earth. you're going thru a hard time.. and you know God will pull you thru.. but yet you're still in despair.. and you cant seem to feel anyone there... there's like nobody you can really talk to.. they all have their own opinions.. and you have yours. and if they clash? i cant imagine. being mr or ms nice is really so hard... we cant please everybody.
ever so often we're so preoccupied with things of this world and tend to forget the one who's watching over us up there. we forget our real purpose on earth and we forget His presence. =(
having so much responsiblities can be good can be bad... we did put it in his pigeon hole what... and he said cannot find it.. it wasnt there. dan how? if it really is missing dan how? will i be held repsonsible? you're supposed to get the chem rep incharge over here hello!! not me!! im overloaded already. and the STUPID vice-chair jus sits there and pushes it all to me. some vice-chair... thanks for your help arh!
i havent even got back my $10 and i doubt i'll ever get it back.
now i gotta worry abt mon... whether i'll keep my role or not. and i really doubt i can... i nid to sing but i cant sing! and you're just gonna take it away from me like that... why... why...
God did try to cheer me up in certain ways... but i just cant seem to. there's just too many things... maybe im handling stuff the wrong way.. will somebody tell me the right way! where were you when i needed you most??
the earth just keeps rotating and rotating.. time just keeps ticking and ticking.. sometimes i really dunno what to do.. i really dunno what to say... i really dunno.. i just dunno.. i really really dunno... why won't those tears jus come out! why do they wanna stay inside... they just wont come out... how...
holidays... not in the mood for them.. no time for them either.. jus look at the amt of hmwk we have. you can really faint. why cant i pull myself together.. its not even half the year and im already like.... how willl i ever cope?
i could feel that sharp pain in my heart.. thinking abt what they said. getting back the ones i din want to and i knew.. i knew what i'll get.. it was painful.. becos of the things they said. why cant i just forgive and forget? i really dunno what to do.. what to feel.. how to react.. i may just explode this one fine day and i really dunno if there' gonna be anyone there ever... i feel so alone.
i really dont need all these... i really dont... everybody's sad.. troubled.. worried.. stressed.. life's like that.. its really sad to say... its so hard to even cheer up someone up.. hard to cheer ur own self up too. cos i dont even know the exact problem.
i tink im like just crapping. sighs.
shattered.
Mormor thought at.
9:37 PM
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
in jeopardy!! nooo!!
i had to hold back my tears.... told you its like when you wana cry.. you're simply in the wrong place at the wrong time.. and when you can cry... you just don't feel like doing so anymore. how stupid...
i dun care if i train doubly or triply hard or whatever! im gonna do it! i can do it! i will do it!
i hope*. =
one more day to holidays!!
Mormor thought at.
8:07 PM
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Wednesday, March 08, 2006
had chocolate milk just now. sam went down and bought for me. was so nice and tasty!! yumms! hehe... okayy.. 4am macs breakfast.. coming along... really want the holidays.. but there's like so much hmwk to do.. and everything's so packed.. so many things.. yet so little time. =
umm.. today's assembly was rather interesting... was something abt ballet frm the dunno what what.. all the ballet dancers so pro.. look like swans. haha! they really look so elegant when they dance larh. got that really light feeling.. like they're flying or floating or something.. how nice.. there was one part where the guys danced and they looked so... retard. haha kae i know im being mean. XD but overall the whole thing was good larh. makes me feel like learning ballet. HAHA dat must be the joke of the year. imagine me... learning ballet... how Ridiculous. =D how atrocious. haha! those pointy feet.. wonder how they do so..
finished my versailles treaty essay! tcher mad larh.. give today.. hand in on fri. so little time! and we've got like this thick sorta sch compiled 5 year series mid year exam papers for us to do during the holidays.. there goes my holidays... sighs. =( our nice holiday present. english oso must do ten year series... bet there's gonna be more hmwk. confirm.. oh and there's bio project. =( really tink band members very poor thing leh.. during hols got band prac everyday frm 7am to 6pm. imagine that! worse than sch days larh! gosh... hope they get gold for SYF. hehe
my eyebags are like.. soo.. black. haha... lethargity. cant help it...
everything's so unbalanced. at least dats the way my life is. haven't been talking to some pple for quite some time.. i come home only oso seldom talk. i shall become dumb someday. how great would that be. might as well take away my mouth. haha what am i talking... see what sch has done to me... sighs.
tmr gp birthday... how? will somebody tell me how?
i hereby bid you adieu.
Mormor thought at.
7:12 PM
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Sunday, March 05, 2006
everything was so still in the afternoon. i knew i had PEACE. =) hehe.. my whole family was out including the maid. so i came home to an empty house and had it all to myself frm 2.30pm till like 5pm. HOW NICE!! im telling you.. it was so so so so so so nice and PEACEful. woots! heat up my own lunch.. played piano without samson's disturbance.. no telephone ringing.. no other noise other than my piano and me! could even take this short nap. with the nice breeze. did my homework with the music on and nobody to nag! WAH! din realise it was actually so great. haha! but can be abit sian at times.. too quiet.. pretty freaky.. kae i shall not complain but give thanks. in the end din haf piano cos tcher couldn't come. good!
so i did my ss northern ireland essay instead. you could say i finished most of my homework.. left preparation for chinese public speaking. and studying for chem test. gonna try to sleep early tonight. can grow taller.. replenish cells.. and feel energetic tmr! haha.
went for yp ytd and ss today.. was really a wake up call for me. a few times i wanted to break down but just not the right place and the right time. feel so stupid. cant even cry when i want to. and when i want to, i dun feel like anymore. you know how it feels? =X
back to sch again tmr.. nevermind.. jus endure one more week and march hols!! getting nearer to my 4am breakfast. yay!
i tink my eyesight is deteriorating and my hearing is getting from bad to worse. ahh!! XD
everything's so still.. so still inside of me.. i really really .... ...
oh yarh. 4 march, Happy birthday Reuben!! 5 march, Happy birthday Caijun!!
Mormor thought at.
8:24 PM
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Friday, March 03, 2006
why oh my my oh why why oh my my oh why. haha
i've gotta tell you something so important... it really is so important that i really urgently need to let you know. do you want to know? i bet you do... cause its so important.. really important...
ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BWAHAHAHA XD
okaay be glad its friday. means tmr's a sat. day after tmr is sun. day after tmr tmr umm.. kae stop at sunday first. haha. finished lit essay.. took me so long to form my thoughts. lOl and i got my taste of the dars chocs!! Yummilicious!! kept some more for later. weet!
so sian. tmr is cip day. means we must go collect newspapers. until 1pm. dan later go for yp. no time to hmwk. dan mus pia all today. cos sunday no time oso. blahh.. and one more week is holiday!! my 4am macdonald breakfast!!! YIPEE!!
bought caijun's prezzie. so cute! haha!
sorry Lord, for the times i was so unworthy. Help me Lord to look to you in everything and rmb matt 5:16. hehe. and ephesians 4:32. =D
i wish i could jus run away. i really wanna run away. to a far away place. where nobody knows me. a green pasture. tall ice-capped mountains. blue skies. night time stars. a valley. sheep grazing all over. peaceful feeling. will i ever?
real? or simply unreal?
Mormor thought at.
6:54 PM
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
finally tmr its friday!!!! another gruelling week is gonna be over so soon. yay!
and one more week! one more week its the march holidays!! garr!!
not a good week for me i guess... i dunno really know what to say.. im stunned. idiotified. why? because i feel that im a big idiot. sorry that i've been such a idiot that i dun even know what to say right now. garr!!
i wanna eat chocolates!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna scream!!!!!!!!! i wanna go to the beach!!!!!!!!
beauty and the beast rehearsals rock!
Be my guest! Be my guest! Be my guest!
Mormor thought at.
8:56 PM
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Saved by Grace, Loved by God
[ Life's sweet and yummy ~*
`Mor,MorMor or Morsha
` I'm a child of God, a very loved one as all children of His are.
`loves God, family, friends, music, chocolates, laughing, having fun, disney, lil kids and mickey's house.
` And i just wish someone would understand the magic of my wonderland.
` I have often dreamed, that my life would be,like a fairytale; A perfect fantasy...
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