~Mor Mor~ Yup, that's mi!!

eye of the storm

2009-07-29T21:16:00.000-07:00

Mickey's Avenue :DDDD
Oh i hope to visit Disneyland with a loved one, one day. (:

Its funny how when time permits you to sleep, you'd rather do something else than sleep. Then you end up sleeping at all the wrong times and wrong places.

School's been more than a mouthful, with mid years that just passed and the prelims drawing closer in a strange fashion. Strange because i've never felt so unmotivated and demoralised to actually study hard hard hard hard for my prelims which will probably be a good gauge of how prepared i am for Alevels. And the conclusion? - I am, not prepared. And reality check: I've only got about 4 weeks left to the prelims of which GP will start it with a loud and horrifying bang.

Nonetheless, we've been having alot of revision lectures and tutorials, and i've been doing my homework and revising at the same time, hoping that everything shall fall into place like really soon or i'll be more than dead. This sounds so pessimistic, but honestly, i'm tired and trying to regain focus every now and then.

Then again, in the midst of darkness, there are things to be thankful about. I'm thankful for the bunch of classmates that i have and i am enjoying their company more each day. Its kinda like we're going through this huge trial together, facing disappointments, stress, overload and stuff. However, we always try to fill our school days with laughter, over really funny things, and over really silly things. Laughter seriously is the best medicine, Amen to that. haha.

I find that my brain is kind of saturated. Hmm, i need a bigger brain. Sadly thats not possible, so i'll just make do with it. And Lord, I need help.

And to regain focus, let's take a look at Psalm 73:21-24.
When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.
Yet I am always with You;
You hold me by your right hand.
You guide me with Your counsel, and afterward You will take me into glory.
Psalm 73:26
But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the sovereign Lord my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds. (:

To my friends, here's to you: A friend is the first person who comes in when the whole world has gone out. And i'm more than willing to be that friend. (: (Awwwww....)

To Ruiying: Just call my name, and I'll be there.... ( By the Jackson 5) hahaha.

I shall end this post with my all time favourite phrase to hang onto,

GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME. :DDDD

distracted

2009-06-21T06:29:00.000-07:00

yo,

i'm into my last week of the "holidays" already.

things that happened:
- back to school for extra lessons
- family went to korea and came back safe and sound
- mugging
- meals with friends
- cousin stayover
- late night home movies :DDDDDD
- gospel rally practices
- dvbs recee
- sentosa

Uh, thats all i can remember. sheesh, its either i have a bad memory or thats really all i did in the past three weeks. Okay lah, its quite alot actually in a short span of three weeks, plus all the revision i'm supposed-to-do-but-not-fully-completed-yet. Extension of the holidays due to H1N1 sounds cool but then again, it may not be good.

i love:
-Bolt :DDDD

i'm tired of all the guessing games, but i can't give up, neither can i blow up.

your heart will lead you home

2009-06-06T21:58:00.000-07:00

My genius sister captured this killer shot of my brother. (:

I miss them, totally.

My family's in korea now, and i'm left alone to an unusually empty and quiet home with my grandma. Why didn't i go? Because firstly, i happen to have two days of school during their vacation period, and i've got tons to study for the exams right after the june hols.

And its going to be one of the most agonizing weeks ever without my brother and my sister.
I feel awfully alone. I just want to sit down and cry.

But take heart, they'll be back soon, on friday(12 june). And as much as people always say that time flies, i don't really care to look on that bright side now because when a person is upset, they usually can't think straight.

Sent them off at the airport last night, and thankfully i had a shoulder to cry on (: (thank you so much)

Lord, please take me through this lonely period. Use me even this one week to touch the life of somebody with Your love.

Helped out at a children's home near Kovan today. Painted the dorms to make the home a more colourful and vibrant place for the kids there to live in, which once again reminded me of how fortunate the bulk of us are. Never ever take things for granted.

if you're looking for a nice song to hear, go find one titled Your heart will lead you home by Kenny Loggins. nice (:

a question without judging

2009-06-03T22:00:00.000-07:00

I've been playing the song( Jai Ho) from slumdog millionaire almost the entire afternoon today, and it came as quite a shock to me that there's a version by the pussycat dolls. Haha. I like the song. haha. Its nice.

Anyway, its the june holidays! :DDDD or :(((((( (because its mugging time)

I had a great kickstart to my holidays with the yp outing/games on the 30th May in which we played touch rugby, ultimate frisbee and captain's ball the entire afternoon. I had a pretty good workout and was awarded with body aches the next day. signs of ageing again. haha. Oh and thank God for the really good weather!

Then there was Dawn's birthday celebration/SAKAE SUSHI BUFFET on monday after maths lecture with the girls. I miss the food!!!! Haha. The buffet only starts at 3pm and we arrived at cityhall at like one plus so we kinda just wandered around from citylink to suntec and to marina square. Ah hao, py and i shared this really nice ice cream from a shop down the lane. It was quite expensive, but the money was worth it.

Our tummies were rumbling as we walked and we kept checking our watches for the time to show that its nearing 3pm so we could make our way to sakae. We had a great meal, clearing at least 60plus plates between the 8 of us. ( Cherlene, we really wished you'd joined us, but you were stuck at AB camp. :( And yes, the exciting part: we placed Dawn's birthday presents on a sushi plate and requested for the waitress to present it to her. She got quite a shock when she was served the plate of presents, thinking it was some complementary dish from sakae. HAHA but it was a good surprise. Heh. We were so stuffed and i skipped dinner altogether and returned to an empty home because my maid has returned to indonesia for her sister's wedding and my family was out for dinner.

And so, i seized the opportunity and spammed my music CDs on the player and went dancing around the house as a form of exercise and to de-stress. HAHAHA. I hope there were no secret cameras around the house. XD

My schedule says that i've alot to revise and complete ASAP if i want to get reasonable results for the midyears. I need a bottomless stomach so that i can munch on stuff while i study for motivation, but sadly, i think my stomach shrank. It gets bloated easily. :( Nevermind, i'll figure out other innovative ways to keep me going as i mug.

We spend our strength extinguishing fires that if left alone, would burn out on their own.

Come on, strike out in ridiculous faith and show the world how great God is. (:

falling slowly

2009-05-27T19:12:00.000-07:00

reminiscing the not too long ago times in Japan. (:
i hope to go there again someday, and this time, i'll make sure i'll spend a longer time in Disneyland. :DDD and i'll hunt for mickey just to get a shot with him. hehe.

we're standing near the 6th month of the year already, and i wonder what the future beholds ( although i can roughly tell what will be up and coming. haha )

Lets see, with the dawn of the june holidays, i can expect having to return to school for makeup lectures and tutorial sessions for the 1st two weeks, crazy mugging days, more sleep (i hope), some fun inbetween and possibly read and finish a book. I haven't gotten my hands on the latest Aunt Dimity book. haha

"If by compromise is meant that i should cease from my duty, I cannot make it. I fear God more than i fear man. Crush me if you will, but i shall die at my post. " - Elijah Lovejoy.

stoned, totally

2009-05-23T22:28:00.000-07:00

i sit there totally baffled and confused by the many swirls around me.

This world is full of mystery.

God, please show me.

danny and sawyer!

2009-05-18T22:27:00.000-07:00

to the spotlight home,

now our time has come!

i hope not

2009-05-14T17:36:00.000-07:00

Maybe we belonged to two different worlds altogether.

Could it be?

exhaustion of the synapse

2009-05-12T17:30:00.000-07:00

here i am again for the sake of freedom of expression.

the past weeks have been happening. Alot of the credit goes to the bombardment of tests, tutorials and SYF. (:

i'll do some coverage about SYF, since it was a particularly hard to understand event.
Okay, so it was the SYF season which many of our school's aethestics groups took part in. Guitar's syf was scheduled on the 28th of april, which coincided with my sister's birthday. To think that we sacrificed the past few months with so many practices, in hopes of achieving that coveted gold award which our cca never did manage to achieve for all previous SYFs. Well, i can say that we really improved a major lot from the time we first learnt the pieces, and getting a gold was possible, if not, at least a silver. And finally, 28th april arrived with much anticipation because firstly, it meant that our heavy lot of practices would finally come to a closure, and secondly, the fruits of our labour shall be rewarded. We had a morning of practice and preparation and set off for republic poly about 11am. Everything was fine even till the time we entered the stage and played our two all-too-familiar pieces.

So the results were released at about 3 plus and it seemed that this year's SYF judging criteria was pretty strict and merciless. Many schools saw their previous gold award being transformed into a silver metal or even a bronze award for this SYF. And to our horror, we were awarded bronze.

The results of what we got made it to my database of "Shocking news list". Everyone else around me was equally upset and schocked as well, because seriously we felt that we deserved better than a bronze. But oh well, we could prepare all we want, practice as much as we think best and intepret the song according to our musical discretion, but ultimately, the decision lies with the judges who merely observed the few minutes of our performance without having the need to consider all the hardwork that was laid out behind the stage.

Of course i spent a long time thinking about the issue and trying to figure out why things had to turn out like that. Naturally i questioned, "Why this Lord? Why did it have to turn out like this? It was so disappointing. " Then i remembered how much i complained about the many practices and the long hours we spent with the guitar. Perhaps this was my punishment for complaining so much. But did the entire guitar have to be punished? And i remembered that many of us in guitar complained and murmured alot as well. Perhaps it was this collective effort of displeasure that we were punished for it. BUT, this is flawed thinking. Because, all things happen for a reason, a good reason, because God is Good and this attribute will never change. ( I should probably make a sign " I shall refrain from complaining" and hang it in my room )

i wondered why God couldn't just make the judges give us at least a silver. He knew and saw the amount of effort and time we put into our practices, so surely we would be rewarded right. But i forgot one thing, that man has freewill as well. God cannot force our actions, He gives us choices. And after all, this was just a competition and the results will ultimately mean nothing in the light of eternity. And competition is a system that the world has created, to distinguish what they decide to be the bad, the good and the excellent. Getting a bronze doesn't mean that we're of bronze material, because we know that we're more than just that. We've formed friendships, bonded with our guitar and picked up many pointers along the way about showmanship. So, the bronze doesn't really matter anyway. I know, i know that God had a purpose for it all, and lessons to teach. The world tells you that we're bronze, but among us, we know its more than that. Mdm Khoo said, be proud of what we achieved, because we honestly did our best, and thats enough. Yes, we know, i know. and its over.

HOWEVER, the harsh reality still remains. I heard some soul in school mention something today about guitar getting a bronze and the tone of it was obviously indicative of guitar being slighted. Well, we're the only cca in the school to get bronze while all the other ccas got like silver and many gold with honours. So, comparatively, people will definitely think that guitar is lousy. I wasn't offended or anything when i heard it but it just pointed to harsh reality and the way the world sees and values things. And of course, the battle of false fantasy and harsh reality continues. I'll never comprehend, but i'll trust you Lord.
God still spoke to me and left me a word in Job 1:22 "In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing."

Wow, that was a tad too much coverage for the SYF saga.

Moving onto other stuff...

Helped out at Children's Corner for the month of april. Kids are so active and so competent in being able to put a smile on your face. (:

okay, i'll stop here. I actually have more stuff to blog about but ah, another time.

(:

cynical again.

2009-04-13T22:01:00.000-07:00

and then i realized,

that i wasn't important after all.

insecurity grips me by the neck

2009-04-08T22:30:00.000-07:00

hello bloggo. been reminded by my classmates today that i haven't updated in awhile, and therefore, here i am. haha.

actually whats a blog for?
just a portal for daily updates, for yourself or for others to see?
an avenue for self advertisement/attract attention?
or a platform of genuine sharing of thoughts, encouragements and daily affairs?

i wonder. i wonder whats your purpose of a blog for, and whats the purpose of my blog for.

i guess when i first started out blogging, it was for the mere fun of it, the fascination of blogskins, and how you actually can have a website thats all yours, pour out your thoughts and emotions into it and have friends flocking with concern all over the tagboard. Blogging was cool, a novelty, didn't read much into it also. i just blogged.

eventually, i abandoned my good old fashioned diary for this hot little blog that seemed much more entertaining and all. i started posting very often, daily i would say, and typed out whatever happened to me during the day, and whatever thoughts and feelings i had with no qualms about anything whatsoever. ( at this point in time, it would be good to do some cross referencing to the archive. HAHA )

as time passed, and the days got busier, and we all supposedly became more matured, i started to blog less. the blog posts seemed more reserved too, WITHOUT all the twit language (eg. horxx, lehz, eeuu, lurbbx, horz, nitexx, haloxx, and whatever else. HAHA) i guess that kinda indicated the stepping out of the crazy-with-blog phase.

yeah and gradually, the way i penned down my thoughts just changed. And today, its back to the good old fashioned diary, where i begin my daily posts by Dear Lord... and some short updates and thoughts.

anyway, the months passed by too soon and here i am, standing at A quarter of the year 2009, supposedly one of the most important years for me because together with other pitiful souls, we'll be taking the Alevel exams in a few months down the road. Had to sign the confirmation slip of our registration of papers today, and if all goes well, my alevel journey should end by 3 december 2009. Quite a relief i must say. I can almost imagine and taste the sweetness of freedom! Haha.

Life's been quite dramatic. ( as i would like to call it ) With so many things that happened, happening and will happen. Up and coming, it'll be guitar SYF, which we spent many months working hard for. ( yeah so did other schools right, so whats the big deal. haha ) i can only say that the months of practices have enhanced my guitar playing skills, nurtured some patience and love in me for guitar and i've gotten to know my fellow cca members better. After syf, i have no idea whats in store, but i must say it'll be nice knowing that i can finally knock off from school at 12:15pm on fridays instead of the usual 7pm. A BIG difference. :DDDDDDDDDD

we just had a ton of activities too, like the recent AJ25 Family Day, which i must say was quite fun, considering that my class ended our sale of food real early, and i had the opportunity alongside with others to help the vegetarian stall aunty ( my long time neighbour :D ) to sell her food. Then a few of my friends and i decided to get some thrill and try out the mini viking ship, awaiting for that ONE little peak. haha. And it was so sadistic of us to actually enjoy seeing our chemistry teacher get dunked a few times. HAHA. no offense though. its just payback. XD ( okay, i was just KIDDING. Please don't come after me, my chemistry's bad enough and i do respect you as a teacher. you're good! honest! )

okay and what else... AH, ONE VOICE CONCERT. haha all the singing and stuff which i enjoyed quite alot. thankful that there were quite a number of visitors that night, including my family, ah qiao and jo. :D And the Abundantly girls, i sure had an abundance of fun with you all! sure thank God for the priceless opportunity to sing praises to Him in such a delightful manner.

yeah, there was like homework, tests, march holidays, along with everything other thing that can happen to an 18 year old. events you regret going for, things you regret not doing and the list goes on. My my, i've had such an eventful first quarter of the year. And there's more in store for the next and next and next. Haha. Thank God i'm surviving! and for all the prayers! (:

lastly, here's an apt verse to encourage all you labourers. haha

2 Chronicles 15:7 "But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded."

Our life is not futile,
Our failure is not fatal,
Our death is not final.

Good friday's in 2 days time. A time to celebrate the death, burial and most importantly the resurrection of the Lord Jesus Christ. And once again, i pray that the true meaning of easter may get through to you. The Lord Jesus Christ died for you. He takes our sin and gives us His salvation. Any questions, i'll be glad to answer!

Till the next post, i wish you dear reader, the warmest of regards, and the sincerest 'God bless' i could ever type. (:

so complex

2009-02-22T23:13:00.001-08:00

restoration in progress.

revived! for awhile..

2009-02-17T17:08:00.000-08:00

i guess this entry would probably be like some electric shock to my blog that allows it to be revived for just a short moment having not blogged for a pretty long short while.

and yes, sch's started and all. things are brightening up a little, at the thought of just persevering through the year and finishing it with a big bang of the A levels, and poof! i'll be free! as free as i want to be i hopefully hope.

momentary fluctuations of the mood happens every now and then and i don't know what to blame it on but myself.

lets see, the things that happened thus far:
1. AJC open house - well i helped out as facilitator and got a pretty bad sunburn whilst welcoming the visitors.
2. Sch started - with all the rushing to complete the large amount of holiday homework, and nodding off during lectures again. ( ugh i hate that feeling, its horrid )
3. Chinese New Year - i totally over ate and chilled.
4. My exhilarating 18th birthday. - special thanks to my family for the carebear cake, bananas for the surprise, and the church pals for guiding me through a little journey to find you guys up at the 4th floor in the dark with a cake. someone smashed cake right into my face, the strawberries almost went up my nostrils. (ewww..) okay, i exaggerated but a slice of cake was smashed into my face alright.
5. College CIP - a great break from lessons for a day.
6. birthdays of friends
7. My mental breakdown - seriously. i had morbid thoughts.
8. CTs that were just over, and more coming up.

i completed a book about the Lord Jesus and His occupation as a carpenter. the insights and lessons are simply amazing. and you just see how God's plan all fit in. and even though there are few verses in the bible that mention the Lord Jesus as a carpenter, his job was extremely important for His three years of ministry on Earth.

Every now and then i remember the song about what an awesome God we have. i think about the world, i think about the people, and i think about God.

There's not much time left. And He's calling you to salvation. Will you believe Him? Please do.

thats all i can vaguely remember. February's ending so soon.

apprehension

2008-12-28T23:51:00.000-08:00

this picture is meant for the words somewhere below. haha

I'm not exactly in the right state of mind now. Abit of like a lunatic, so don't be surprised if i come roaring at you with a fork. ( well, a fork can prove dangerous. )

its two weeks left to school, perhaps that explains my really entangled state of mind, wishing i had graduated or something. Just to be far away from the reality that i'll be facing alevels next year which is like in a few days or so. its funny how you wish alevels would come quick because you just want to get over it, but also funny how you wish it'll never come cause you're never prepared for it. I am so not prepared for it. not at all. besides not being in the state of mind to face it, i'm not in the state of academic readiness for it, neither in the state of physical strength. I haven't ran since youth camp, and have been eating like nobody's business especially in Japan.

anyway, turning back the clock to youth camp. IT WAS AWESOME! i would never want to be anywhere else but there, in mersing, with a whole bunch of enthusiastic youths coupled with a week of great learning, games, fellowship and love. i totally miss the times in the dorm, which was so wonderfully equipped with a toilet. :DDD and blessed with really cute p6 dorm members together with lovely melissa and rachel. haha it was great fun in the dorm! mann, i sure miss those times and wouldn't trade it for any other. (:

and God helped me alot in the preparation and delivering of the BS sessions. I thank God for Aunty Hoe Lay and the girls, who were so supportive and attentive. Whatever things i said, it was really the working of the Holy Spirit, nothing of my own. I just hope they all learnt something and how great God's word really is.

And there were the fun games at the beach, the interesting camp talks ( i love to hear the way caucasians speak ) , singspiration, olympic bible quiz, workshops and campers' night. Hey friends, you might want to come for the next youth camp. i guarantee it'll be a whole lot of fun. :D just ask me if you want to!

Now, moving onto my Japan trip. I shall post up pictures about it. I guess it'll be more fun to read that way. Agreed? haha yes agreed.

was just thinking of how unexpected things work out. Like i have been dreaming of disneyland my entire life, just to visit the magical land of mickey and friends and all of the sudden, i was there. like there. just there. right there. like on mickey avenue. ( points up ) and i only caught a glimpse of my prince charming, cause he was like so hot in demand that he had to run away and hide from the crazy crowd filled with people like me. Okay no, nobody's as crazy about mickey as me. :DDD anyway, back to the point about the unexpected. I've learnt from camp that we musn't limit our AWESOME GOD. He can do the unexpected, if you simply trust, have faith and believe.

this holiday's been real busy. somehow it was so packed with events that it seemed such a blur. and now that i know sch's going to reopen, my smile turned upside down. ( into a frown in case you didn't know. haha. )

i'll come back to rant more soon and post up some pictures like sometime soon i hope. right now, i need to reconstruct my thoughts.

The new year's advancing! I'll send my wishes soon.

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone.

off and away!

2008-12-07T16:46:00.000-08:00

off and away i go!

to mersing for an awesomest youth camp, where the saints shall learn to live by FAITH.

followed on with a lovely family vacation to Japan, where i'll finally get to meet my prince charming and to explore his homeland. :DDDD ( make a wild guess )

i'm leaving my himalayan pile of homework behind, and a whole dang gang of people. i'll miss whats/whos in singapore. :/

And the answer to the guess i asked you to make, its: MICKEY AND GANG!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH~
such elation! Euphoria! Joy! Excitement! you seriously should see how kiddish i behave at the thought that i'm visiting mickey's homeland.

don't worry, i honestly won't forget you. XD

little ones with BIG Faith :D

2008-11-28T12:25:00.000-08:00

Praise God from Whom all blessings flow. (:

Lord, i just can't thank you enough for how much you've given me, how much you've given us.

DVBS was AWESOME!

I really enjoyed myself. I enjoyed seeing all the little ones have so much fun, i enjoyed seeing how the leaders so wonderfully carried out their tasks, i enjoyed the chit chat sessions with the kitchen ladies, i enjoyed giving out the tshirts and seeing the smiles on their faces, i enjoyed seeing so many new comers, i enjoyed the fine weather we had for all three days, i enjoyed disturbing the groups at the beach station and being a roadblock, i enjoyed the singspiration, i enjoyed printing and cutting the photos at uncle poon's house, i enjoyed doing the DVBS cheer, and i enjoyed working with the committee. (: God's hand was mighty yet gentle upon us, God is simply marvellous.

It has been a wonderful experience serving in this ministry and like what Uncle Vincent said, there are no words to express the joy we have, its just wonderful. wonderful beyond imagination. Now its to pray for the good Word sown in the hearts of the little ones to grow, and one day, we'll see them serving God too.

DVBS theme song 2008
Faith is just believing
What God says He will do
He will never fail us
His promises are true
If we but receive Him
His children we become
Faith is just believing
This wondrous thing is done.

When one's heart is overfilled with joy, some may spill from the eyes. (;

dang its the holidays

2008-11-16T23:01:00.000-08:00

HAHA.

sorry for neglecting you old bloggo. been penning down alot on my good old fashioned notebook. hehe.

yes its the holidays, with PW officially over. like good riddance! :D and chinese alevels over, for the moment until the results are out and its time to consider whether to retake or not. haha. And looking back on the entire school year, i must say that God has been faithful, and really good, with all the opportunities and new experiences he presented me with, the people he showed me along the way, all the fun and tears shed, all the hardwork and play. There's one sure thing i gotta tell you: The Christian life is oh so exciting, and i can't wait for what else is in store for me (:

goodness, i've truly like a ton of homework that would stretch for 20 miles of road and grass. and i've got to get my butt down to doing it. I'll need to stock up alot of food for that, and draw up an exercise plan to complement the eating lest i find myself growing horizontally, like woah.

saw the BYMET team off on saturday, and they're in cebu now. its going to be one fun and rewarding trip, and i'm sure the Lord has much to show and to teach. was so high at the airport that morning, cheering up the mornings of mel fong, elsia and whoever else who laughed at how lame i was. Hey, its not my fault okay, somebody caused this influence. :D

many exciting things up and coming!
1. guitar camp ( HAHA, well not quite excited about this one though but i'll just give it some face)
2. DVBS
3. YOUTH GOSPEL NIGHT
4. YOUTH CAMP
5. SENTOSA FAMILY CHALET ( my brother's favourite )
6. HOMEWORKING AND MUGGING. ( OH.)
7. TV ( whoohoo )
8. SLEEP ( to grow some inches )
9. READ
10. PICNIC ( with sister and cousin )
11. MAKAN SESSIONS ( with whoever who loves to eat! )
12. MANY MANY QUIET TIME WITH MY GOOD LORD. (:
13. perhaps some outings with good old classmates, and the current ones? :D

Lord i'm amazed by You
Lord i'm amazed by You
Lord i'm amazed by You
How You love me. (:

a thought

2008-10-28T15:16:00.000-07:00

A strong man stands up for himself.

But a stronger man stands up for others.

- Barnyard

I'll always want to be that stronger man;
but how much stronger will i be?

exciting!

2008-10-24T23:27:00.000-07:00

Look at our yummylicious Ben and Jerry's ice cream cake. Awesome.

I made omelette mushroom rice and french fries for my family in the evening! :D Yumms, accompanied by steamed salmon, and another side dish, plus fishball veggie soup! haha cooking is fun, and so is baking. Maybe i'll open an eatery-bakery in the future. do patronize! (:

rejoice! Jamie's discharged! haha she sounded so energetic over the phone. Wonderful. :D

2 more weeks, and the holidays would officially begin. Excited? Somewhat. i'm looking forward to nice outings with friends, revision and homework, movies, food, sleep, sleepovers, dvbs, youth camp, youth gospel night, indulgence in mysteries and a whole lot more! oh, i forgot, exercise. gotta shed off that extra weight i put in this half of the year. seriously, haven't got an idea why my appetite expanded by more than half. XD bad, so bad.

i've a recent fetish for vampires and the sorts. Aunt Dimity's Vampire hunter, lovely. (: i emailed the author! :DDDD see my beams. haha

i had a fun time with nicky and enling on thurs! haha at starbucks, then at cityhall and marina square. yay!

your future is guaranteed exciting, especially when its with God. (:

seriously

2008-10-21T21:50:00.000-07:00

HELLO :D

boy am i proud to say that we have submitted the written report for our project. Now its left with the I&R document and the OP. Can't believe PW's about to be over. and there's chinese A's coming up too. Feeling pretty hyped up now, knowing that all shall be over soon. Haha. comical situations, cool.

haha alot happened during the period after promos and this post. there were fun birthday celebrations, school, getting back of results and a whole lot of stuff. Sudden mental block, i guess its always like that when you deliberately try to recall things. haha. Oh, and not to forget, the ben and jerry's ice cream cake making course that i had with my family. YUMMs (: nat's birthday and the night safari were more of them. (:

To those taking the olevels, and to the upcoming alevels, i wanna wish you guys all the best! A year ago, i was caught in the first. And a year later, i'll be battling the 2nd. Caught inbetween. Haha XD

found a verse to encourage one in the morning (:
Psalm 143:8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for i have put my trust in You. Show me the way i should go, for to you i lift up my soul.

The next time you wake up and feel all groggy and grumpy, tell the Lord, thank you for this new day Lord. I love You.

i'm dreaming of an english cottage with the warm fireplace by the snuggly rug!

At long last :D

2008-09-25T19:02:00.000-07:00

Hello! I've got super duper whoo hoo good news to share!

promos are O-V-E-R, OVER!

like at long last, they're over and done with. done with exams for this year. (:
and i must say, God has been good, all the time, throughout the year, through every moment, through every up and down.
i seriously had a hard time the past two weeks mugging for the exams, like there was super alot to study, and time just cruelly flew by. but i must say, God answers prayer. He gave me the determination and drive that i prayed for. haha (: and thanks to all who have been praying!

and yes, they're over! well, it took me quite awhile to register that, cause like yah, hard to believe in a way. XD anyway, died so hard in wait for the last paper to end, and then, headed to plaza sing with cherlene, qiao ma, jo, ah hao, michelle and ruiying to makan!! settled for pastamania after some serious consideration. haha. then we stopped by at made with love, cause jo wanted to buy some stuff. and the stuff there were so so so PRETTY! the shop changed, upgraded its image i would say. haha, and the mickey and disney stuff, they were so cute! oh, if only i had enough money, and no conscience to buy them, unrestrained by practicality. hoho.

okay, then ruiying headed home to spend some moment in solitude with her "lang xin feng bao". HAHA. then the lovely remaining girls accompanied me home, and were treated to an awesomest movie! Facing the giants. Its a christian show i STRONGLY recommend, a must watch, a delight, an inspiration, a joy, a product of the Lord's people, and blessed by God. The plot's good, the music's nice, the acting is good, and with God, nothing is impossible. yes, absolutely nothing. it was my third time watching it, and still moved me to tears. haha. Hope you girls enjoyed it and that it impacted you all some way or another! (:

hmm, actually a little at a lost of what to do, since there's no more studying to be done. ( we'll talk about pw later and enjoy first. haha ) but i'll treasure this carefree moment, and spend some precious time thanking the Lord and diving into His word.

looking quite forward to what's in store for me for the weekend, without having to worry about which subject i should concentrate on next. studying's not all that bad actually, but it can sometimes get on your nerves. haha. Oh, and to all those out there who still have exams, i'll be praying for you! Persevere! The end is in sight!

once there were two farmers who prayed for rain.
But after praying, only one of them went out to prepare his fields to receive it.
Which one do you think trusted that God will send the rain?

loves and misses! ;)

the accelerated childhood.

2008-09-02T20:59:00.000-07:00

However, time is not of essence anymore. Children are thus taught to read at a more tender age; introduced to the sciences and technical subjects in primary school; made to work at the rate set by teaching machines; and intellectually bombarded at the first sign of intelligence. Such a frenzied approach often confuses capacity with maturity. A child may well be able to read by age two or three, or understand electronics at seven or eight, but does he have the maturity to gain anything from his new knowledge at that age? Advocates of academic acceleration overlook the danger of separating intellectual from emotional and social attributes. Knowledge alone is not enough. One must also have a capacity for warmth and compassion, for creativity, reflecting and communication - attributes without which a man is no more than a talking robot. If, as parents, we want our children to grow up capable of love, sensitivity, tenderness and creativity, they must be permitted sufficient time to let things unfold at their own rate. Allowing children to enjoy childhood experiences to the full is the best preparation for becoming a mature adult.

- adapted from Monthly Letter, 1979

I so fully agree. Childhood is so important and vital to a child's well-being!

haha sometimes kids just say the darnest things. Take my 5 year old brother for example, the way he says things sometimes just makes you wanna grab him and give him a tight squeeze. haha so cute, so cute.

Samantha: Aiyo, i got so much work to do. How, i think tmrw i cannot finish. How how... Aiya, so much work to do.
Samson: You must complain to the teacher! You must say, " What is your problem ah, why you give me so much work? What is the issue? You are the issue! Why you give me so much work?"

Moment of laughter

Samson: Then you take the paper aeroplane and...
Samantha: Throw it at the teacher?
Samson: Ya ya! Then all the other children will laugh!

Moment of laughter

Samson: Isn't that a good idea? Tell the teacher don't give you so much work!

Well, no offence to anyone, especially teachers.( and that is one of my career options )
Its just the way my brother said it really amused my sister and i. It was so innocently yet wittily said. I wonder where he got it from. Haha.

But Jesus said, " Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them. For the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. " - Mark 10:14
(:

oh and Happy Birthday Grandma and matt!

conflicting emotions

2008-09-01T11:16:00.000-07:00

Yay, our sunday sch copa is over! everything went well. (:
Praise the Lord!

sometimes you just need someone to understand. to truly understand.

but its hard, oh so hard.

a thousand different ways

2008-08-28T13:10:00.000-07:00

oh yes, exhaustion has taken its toll.

and ahha, the holidays are just a few days away. well, that is if i can call them holidays. but its to be expected. so i shall not say anything about the stuff the sch planned for us. only that i miss staying home. (:

everyday's like a mad rush, but today i realized just how much i enjoy the company of my classmates. EH! our after promos and op camping at east coast is still on okay! :DD

heh that day cherlene and i were talking about movies, ahh and that sure stirred up my i-want-to-watch-movies crave! we were like talking about those action and thrill kind, old ones, new ones... personally, i feel that we can actually learn alot from movies, especially cartoon ones, depending on how you look at them. they represent a world where there's so much action, out of the norm kinda thing, happy endings, a whole lot of thrill, things you can never do in reality. i mean ya most of it is like animated, digitally tampered with, but oh well, its okay to imagine right? haha

oh yay, sunday sch copa is this sunday! really thank God for having carried us through our few rehearsals and all, and most importantly, to let these girls enjoy serving Him and growing closer together as a result of it all. the book by oswald sanders sure came in handy. Lessons can be learnt everyday. (:

wanna come?
this sunday 31 august 2008
6-7:30pm
Theme is i wish you knew my Jesus
:D hope to see you there!

oh when you are down,
and i'll be your clown. (:

11 aug

2008-08-11T18:45:00.000-07:00

yes! today is a holiday, in lieu of national day. Haha :D And Happy birthday to all the people whose birthday falls on the 9 aug, and to chang liling on the 10aug! Haha ((:

well, it was a nice weekend. lets recap;

friday - sch had national day celebration in the morning, and they managed to get this group of guys from harvard university, who are here in singapore for a performance at the esplanade. They sang superly good acapella and dance moves ( really awesome ), and there was this really cute angmoh guy, wanted to snap a pic with him, but heh, paiseh lah. so many people XD haha anyway, after that had this connect singapore thing, that our sch and probably other schs decided to participate in. Well, had a whole lot of fun singing my lungs out with cherlene and ah hao. We were super high! so after the celebration, headed down to city hall for surprise pw interviews. surprises on the professionals. Haha. then, rushed back to sch for some chem lesson which in the end was cancelled ( well nvm -_-''' ) and so decided to go back to cityhall to disturb sam and von who ate at changing appetites while i koped their food. MUDPIES! i gotta learn how to make them :D then sam stayed over at von's while i went home to do work. haha anti-climax.

saturday - brought grandma for the copa elderly lunch gathering and medical checkup. it was nice helping out on a sat morning and chatting with the elderly. could see that grandma had fun, and keep praying that she'll be saved. then headed home to do work and catch up on sleep. our bs minds cafe outing was cancelled. well nvm, another time! after all the crazy exams! haha. then headed down to yvonne's house for national day family celebration in lieu of aunty rose's birthday as well. GOOD AND YUMMY FOOD. i loved the white chocolate cakes and the lemon cake her mum baked. I could have continued eating, if my stomach had no limits. seriously, i'm such a glutton. HAHAHA and i'm glad i am! had samson asking aunty amy really funny questions too and von just cldn't take it. it was too funny. miss the sleepover we had, during june. ((:

sunday - went for worship and sunday school as usual. had surprise for liling after that. hee. then had ss copa practice till about 2 plus and mrt-ed home. continued to try to bring down my pile of hmwk. then watched bee movie with sam and samson. Its such a nice show! love cartoons. they really teach alot, well at least to me. heh ((;

monday (today) - woke up and started revising chem, and ended up going back to sleep till about 11:30am. it was terrible, i just cldn't wake up. unconscious. hahaha. then continued the mugging, went to cut my hair ( argh so expensive and i didn't know my usual shop not there already ) and now, going to continue with pw.

yes, thats about it all for the past 4 days. imagine what my other days are like. they're packed like sardines, and i thank God for all the marvelous strength and motivation that He gives me, and the inbetween little breaks that i have at sch, while walking home, in the toilet and just stoning on my chair. haha those are times when i think about things aside from work, and you just realize there's so much to learn and observe.

- adapted from the book about Joel Sonnenberg
" Lord, we don't have any answers, just questions of 'why'. But amidst all these whys, we remember that You are God. "

I've got another special treat for you (;
31 august 2008
Ang Mo Kio Bethesda Hall ( just opposite st.nicholas girls school )
6-7pm
Special gospel service
Theme: I wish you knew my Jesus
Message, skit, food and a bunch of friendly people.
Come and join! Its the start of the sept holidays, i guarantee that one hour of yours will be spent most well. (:

i'm happy :D

2008-07-20T22:25:00.000-07:00

I'm happy. :D filled with the joy of the Lord!

though life's been crazily crazy, my joy is made complete in the Lord!
i was just stoning in the toilet, and wondering if the Lord never intervened in my life, where on earth would i be right now? He has blessed me with so much! more than you can ever imagine. though there were times when the patches were rough, but it is through all these that i could taste the goodness of God for myself. (:

gospel rally's over, and yet i'm sure memories of it linger on. The drama was fantastic! the message was strong yet important. Hebrews 2:3 How shall we escape if we neglect so great a salvation? We really ought to ask ourselves. And for us Christians, we ought to ask, How shall we escape if we neglect so great a soul?

God values a soul so much, that we ought to do the same too. Everyone's special. Life is so much more than just studies, work, money, fame, achievements,status and everything else that the world perceives to be of utmost importance. Vanity vanity, all is vanity. I can truly say. Just pause for that moment, and think, Is life really all there is to it? Or is there something more? Why do we bury ourselves with so much, that we forget the little things around us? that we forget the people around us? If death is the end of the road for us, then why labour?

Now lets turn the tables and look at it from a whole new perspective. If Jesus is said to be the way, the truth and the life, then everything will come to light. Through Jesus, we are saved from our sins, saved from death, saved for eternity. Life has so much more meaning, when you're living it for Christ, because He is the meaning of life. We then labour knowing that one day, we'll receive our rewards in heaven. We labour for a purpose and for eternal treasures. We don't labour for money, for achievement nor for fame, because all these will eventually be used up, wear away and be forgotten when we grow old and die. But if we labour for Christ, He remembers everything, and will give us our reward in Heaven. And the greatest reward of all, is to live in Heaven with Him for eternity.

I do admit that there are shadows of doubt at times, when i wonder if Christianity really is, the one true way. And when i try to come up with the craziest excuses of all to say its not, i fail. Because i cannot deny how much the Lord has done for me all these while. Why let that one moment of doubt destroy the eternal joy you can have? Don't, its not worth the pain.

People can call me crazy, like i'm some avid follower of Christ or something. But it doesn't matter, because I am not ashamed of the gospel. Of course persecution is scary, and i do not know if i'll be able to pull through it when i do face it. But i pray, that i may learn to depend on Christ day by day, moment by moment. Its times when you think you're so high up that you ought to be ever on your guard. Even as i type this post, i wonder what will happen next. Will the devil come and attack me with a sudden blow? Perhaps. But i must remember that the Lord is the greater victor of the battle, and in fact, the only victor.

The next few weeks and months are going to be one crazy battle, and i'll have to be mugging hard for promos. And yes, you may ask, why study? Its not going to matter in the end. Well, while we're here on earth, living as a light for Christ, we must be good stewards of the responsibilities that He has entrusted us with. So that we may be good testimonies for him. (:

just realized that its a long time since i rambled on. But i just wanted to say so much. And if you've read till here, I hope it'll be something for you to ponder upon, to be encouraged, and challenged. Its a limited edition post you know! haha XD

have a good week ahead people! Remember God is only that prayer away! He hears, He listens.

Loves! (:

disney

2008-06-27T21:14:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling so disney-ish! :D

was running through images of disney cartoons the other day, to print out for my brother to decorate his paper plate. heh.

ever wonder why i like disney cartoons or shows so so much? Because they represent a different world that i escape to once in a while. Far from reality they are, but thats the whole point. Fairytale endings, really cute conflicts, sing alongs, beautiful and meaningful songs, touching friendships, magical places, prince and princesses, the good always triumps over the evil, and there's love and fun all around. ((: haha well, its nice, really nice.

I guess thats the part of me that only i can understand.

O Lord, Your goodness so great, I can't understand.
Oh, there's going to be a really exciting gospel rally at Bethesda AMK on the 11, 12 and 13 July. You can choose to come on any one of the days. It starts at 7.30pm, and there's going to be a really nice musical drama, sharing of testimonies, and a message. There'll be refreshments too! :D Do let me know if you're interested ya! I'll be most delighted! (:

I tell you, choosing Jesus is a decision and responsibility that you have to make for yourself. And when you chose Him, you would have just found the answer to life. No doubt about that.

going gaga

2008-06-25T21:46:00.000-07:00

Kids! :D

Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world. (:

early

2008-06-24T00:30:00.000-07:00

precious sentosa moments ((:

one more paper left, though i suppose the end of exams will simply mean that the old school routine will start again.. sounds pretty depressing har? Haha, but think optimistic! (:

and yes, the holidays are here and gone, and i can't really find a word to describe them. fun, yes fun. hard, yes hard. can feel myself embarking on a reflective mood now, its time i guess.

sometimes, when you think you're up so high, the next you fall oh so hard.

played hide and seek with cheryl, jingping and jingyan on sat before yp! they're way tooooo adorable! and i couldn't find them! haha! you know, kids can really make your day just by giving you a smile, posing for a picture, or just running right into your arms. hohoho, i think my brother's belly is growing, again. HAHA

God really sent great encouragment my way (:

Teenager, Teenager,

Do the hours you spend each day count for God?

For each hour you waste away

You will answer for someday

But for each hour, you live for God,

He will reward.

Keep praying for all saints always. (:

open season!

2008-06-15T14:21:00.000-07:00

Boog pulls dinkleman and Beth starts to sing;

If you go out in the woods today
You're sure of a big surprise.
If you go out in the woods today
You'd better go in disguise.
For every bear that ever there was
Will gather there together because
Today's the day, the teddy bears have their picnic.

(:

Open season! :D

2nd week

2008-06-02T17:53:00.000-07:00

boy oh boy have my first week of holidays whizzed past just like that. but it was a i would say, relaxing one. haha didn't do much except to eat, sleep, study, sch for lessons, run, tv and all. i know that whenever it was during sch term, i craved so much to do such stuff, and i think its the first ever time i've done this. heh XD if you want things to happen, make them. (:

Well, accompanied my grandma to sentosa on saturday morning, along with the other elderly staying at amk blk 257, the usual ones at the copa elderly lunch held once in awhile in church. It was a really nice day (: they were all so cute and enthusiastic about the trip, many of which told me that they either haven't been to sentosa in a long time or it was even their first. Took them to the underwater world. Old but young at heart (: It was just nice lah, to see them enjoy themselves, and i saw how my grandma was excited.. hee, and really hope/pray that she'll come to the saving knowledge of Christ someday. I used to think that it was such a distant hope, and even had nightmares about rapture coming and i was going to lose her. But as i recall the story of George Muller, who prayed for two of his friends for 50 years before they actually converted to Christ. 50 years! That was some perseverance and faith in Christ! and a great encouragement (:

This week's going to be quite a packed one, with activities and sch coming up, plus trying to squeeze in time to finish up my work and study for the CTs! RAH its SO HARD TO JUST SIT DOWN AND REVISE THE LECTURE NOTES! hahahaha, and my notes are in a huge mess, its time i got down to arranging them. I like studying, somehow. Call me mad, i agree :D

i have a craving for that sorta fried mantou. The one where its crispy on the outside, and when you sink your first bite into it, hot steam rushes out and taste of something soft and delicious overwhelms you. HAHA. Food food darling, what would i ever do without you!

Oh and i came to type this post in the middle of doing a maths practice paper. And my brother's the adorablest. ((:

Yao: (to ling, said in a dreamy fashion) Did you see the way she looked at me...
Ling: Yeah. you mean with disgust??? ( then ling and chien-po burst out laughing!)

Well, if you watched Mulan 2, you'll understand the joke. hilarious! Haha!

My Favourite Echo: God is good, all the time (: happy holidays people!

=]

2008-05-27T23:03:00.000-07:00

that mysterious yet tantalizing air that surrounded her.

holidays again!

2008-05-26T00:50:00.000-07:00

:D yay its the june holidays!! and no amount of declare can ever describe this wondrous joyous happy feeling that i get whenever the word holiday is mentioned! well, who cares even if i have to go back for make up lectures, tutorials, guitar pracs, do hmwk, study for exams and the what not, as long as its officially a holiday, *grins! :D

And you have to agree that time flies way too fast, and let me tell you smth i find pretty interesting. haha. Wanna know why time flies faster as you get older? Well, when you were 5, a year was 1/5 of your life. When you were 10, a year was 1/10 of your life. When you were 20, a year was 1/20 of your life. So as you can see, using the understanding that as the denominator of fractions increases, it also means that the value decreases. And hence, time seems to pass by faster. Haha cool right? oh well, i read it somewhere. heh.

So many gorgeous things have happened over the period that i last blogged, and i still wanna echo again that God is good, all the time!

Hmm lets see, its a pretty sad thing that my self-declared 3 day holiday since the 23rd may after GP paper is officially over. And tmrw, the 26 may, a monday, its back to the mugger spirit. I never liked it though. haha i guess i'll soon drown in that pile of never going down homework and the endless revision that i have to do for my 4 other papers after the holidays. How nice... and that means, that i'll be eating more to accompany me with all that studying and then it requires more exercise if i wanna do my 10km run by this year. Haha. Sounds pretty exciting har? sorry with all that rambling on, its just something i felt like doing, and i cannot stop doing because i just realised that rambling is pretty awesome and oh come on, its still the holidays after all! ( as you can see, thats how excited the word holiday can get me )

On a more serious note, i shall devote myself to spending more time on God's word this holiday. I mean He really deserves the best of my time, after all the Great things he has done for me! Really glad for the various avenues in which He opened for me to serve Him this year, and be challenged to really live that life of a disciple of Christ. It was a long and winding and pretty rough journey, but i can tell you, that Jesus IS the answer, for the world today. (:

I just borrowed a book, titled The true Darcy Spirit, written by Elizabeth Aston, a fan of Jane Austen. I wanted to get the Pride and Prejudice, but i cldn't find it. haha i shall lay my hands on it soon. Hahaha. I wanna know what Mr Darcy is like!

and when you're tired of all, all the madness around you, and you can't find the strength to carry on...

But when I call on Jesus, all things are possible. (:

1st May

2008-05-01T22:04:00.000-07:00

i love holidays (: even if it was just for a day. haha

spent labour day at ACJC, for family day! God gave us really good weather and a whole lot of fun and fellowship. heh it was a nice day, and blue group won! haha our cheers were so cool :D and the song is stuck in my head. XD Jing ping is so so cute!

oh my, after not blogging for so long, i kinda forgot how to. but ah, i just felt like blogging anyway, and i'm so sunburnt, my nose hurts. hahaha

i miss those days, after olevels, where i felt so free yet occupied by things that i liked to be occupied by. well, it beats being occupied by homework and studying for tests.. but ahh, there's no choice. i'll just have to wait till after the alevels, that major mountain to overcome.

i miss being young, i miss so many things...

and Lord, keep me close to you as i go through the next few months. I know it's going to be rough, but your voice of truth shall lead the way (:

when it hurts

2008-04-10T22:42:00.000-07:00

i managed to breathe a little today. (: haha

well, sch has been kind of a mad rush, and it doesn't exactly help when my timetable ends late, and on the days i end early, i have cca. but well, i guess it helps to push me to strive harder each day.

so many things demanding my attention and time, but yet God has been faithful in keeping me through each day. some things are starting to become clearer, and some things are getting better. there's only so much i can give, Lord, break me.

really do miss home, especially when i spend more time in sch than at home. haha was superly delighted when i could go home early today! because of some aesthetics week at sch. i missed my brother! and he's getting cheekier each day. hahaha :D

family means alot to me too.

i miss holidays

2008-03-17T22:00:00.000-07:00

holidays are over.. and i miss them already. very badly. haha.. sure had a real happening short one week break, homework, project, having fun and eating! :D

kinda miss the two nights when von, sam and i had a 2 night sleepover. haha movies we watched: Bring it on ( all or nothing ), are we there yet, monster house and love wrecked. haha all the shows were super funny and we had a great time laughing. nice shows! hee

my courage flew away, but i'll bring it back.

crushed

2008-03-02T21:46:00.000-08:00

simply adorable, isn't it?

haha indulgence in cartoons :D one more week to holidays!

sometimes i feel crushed. oh the frailty of human. haha but look below

nineteen feb

2008-02-19T10:33:00.000-08:00

power verses (:

2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

2Timothy 2:3 Endure hardship with us like a good soldier of Christ Jesus.

Romans 8:37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.

Joshua 1:9 Have i not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your GOd will be with you wherever you go.

2 Corinthians 4:8-9 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

Isaiah 40:30-31 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowlege Him and He will make your paths straight.

1 John 4:16 And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.

may this simple but powerful verses be a blessing unto those who chance upon it. (:

silent cries

2008-02-17T17:10:00.000-08:00

perfectly perfect.

just going to do some random typing on some random words based on random feelings. haha limited vocab. XD

i did my best, but i guess my best wasn't good enough. i gave my all, but i think my all may have been too much.
Just once.
he's a perfectly charming prince, she's a charmingly perfect lass.

lest i forget gethsemane, lest i forget Thy agony, lest i forget Thy love for me, lead me to Calvary.

the way that He loves.

haha okay this so doesn't make any sense, and i can't think of what other random stuff to type already.

so hard to express thyself, guess instrumental music shall do (:

you.

the think-too-much syndrome

2008-02-15T23:29:00.000-08:00

sometimes you just don't feel so upbeat about life all the time.

days have been a real blur, and time seems to pass oh so quickly. seriously, weariness is terrible.. haha. and its so good to be able to stone, and think of nothing or anything except work after a whole week of sch. i'm just so glad the weekends are here. :D

haha been bingeing alot! on PINEAPPLE TARTS, CHOCOLATES, LOVELETTERS/EGGROLLS, BREAD and i dunno what else lah. haha but i guess the 3 days of running helped. heh. chinese new year.. i miss those days, at the chalet with my relatives, and my nephew and niece! gosh! Adorable until ah, i cannot tahan.

really tried to focus on His word this week, and i guess psalm 1:3 reminded me, He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither.Whatever he does prospers.

whose leaf does not wither - and i see it as not giving in to weariness, exhaustion, not letting your testimony fade, but growing so healthily in the Lord. (:

i had always dreamed,
that my life could be
like a fairytale
a perfect fantasy

everyday a new adventure
on some undiscovered shore
was it nothing more, than a dream?

then one magic night
with a single dance
i found more than just a storybook romance
and for once my life was perfect
as we glided across the floor
and it was so much more... so much more... than a dream

i could say it never happened
just a dream from the start
but then i'd lived my life, with a broken heart...

cause in the prince's arms
i found a love i can't deny
if there's any chance to set things right
i simply got to try

so i trust my heart
what else can i do
i can live in dreams if my dreams are to come true

there's a better life thats waiting
past the mountains i must climb
i will take a chance at love
to find my once upon a time...

and i want so much more... so much more... than a dream.......

adapted from cinderella 3. (:

hmm those thoughts

2008-02-03T21:10:00.000-08:00

haha its been a long time since i've updated, and to think that one month has passed by already! gosh, when will things ever slow down? apparently, i can't seem to catch up.. haha older by a year (:

olevel results were out, application for jae over, birthdays passed, homework keep piling up, and now, chinese new year will be here! haha the season to eat and grow fat!! :D and my darling nephew and niece will be heading down from malaysia!!! can't wait to see what my brother's reactions will be. hee, that time my sister took a video of my brother and nephew arguing about sharing toys. HAHA it was so comical, but superly adorable!

haha sch's been a bore, other than the overdose of laughter i get, thanks to my three crazy girls in class. haha :D but i do thank God that i'm settling in.. and soon, everything will start, official.

And i wanna shout out : That God really is good, ALL THE TIME!

haha anyway, just wanna wish all of you a Happy, Blessed and Prosperous Chinese New Year! (:

haha and i'm so blessed with family and friends. (: all the surprises, video, wishes and two CHOCO cakes!! haha i've put on i have no idea how much in just a few minutes. haha.

natty's off to malaysia for a week of visitation! and i'll have to travel to sch alone.. well, at least its only for 2 days. she'll be back soon! :D

gosh, can't get songs out of my head.

~ Whoa oh oh, for the longest time... haha XD

21 jan

2008-01-21T21:38:00.000-08:00

To love the Lord our God,
Is the heartbeat of our mission.
The spring from which our service overflows.
Across the street
Or around the world,
The mission's still the same.
Proclame and live the Truth
In Jesus' name.

sch's alright i guess, starting to get used to the lecture-style teaching though i still prefer the classroom arrangment. haha. and this is bad, i'm starting to get cherlene's nonsense and dry humour. HAHA XD and all the silly jokes we made while waiting for our tutor.

Joke 1 -
Ruiying: Who's the busiest person in AJ? ( applicable to others too)
us: Uhh the principal?
Ruiying: No, the photocopy machine aunty. ( with all the lecture notes she has to photocopy for the classes of J1 and J2s)
XD and yes, we laughed real hard at that. haha

Joke 2-
Us: the teacher is late...
Moritza: haha its okay, he can continue to be late
Us: lets lock the classroom door, then he cannot come in. Sigh dowan tutorial lah, so sian...
Us: then he will have to teach us through that small window
Li Hao: wah like watching tv like that
:D haha couldn't imagine.

Joke 3- last period of the day.
Cherlene: ( teacher not here) moritza, go teach
Moritza: okay class,today lets learn how to go home early
Li Hao: yes and we will teach you how to concentrate on the clock, so you can all be dismissed on time.
Moritza: and yes, we must all pack our bags about 2 minutes before lesson ends, so that when the bell rings, we can leave on time. We must also learn how to exit in an orderly manner so that the exit will not be congested.
Ruiying: why don't we have lessons at the sch gate, then we can leave faster.
Us: YA!
Li Hao: how about at the bus stop or mrt station, more convenient.
Us: YA!
and the lameness just went on till the teacher came. haha

its so nice to just have a hearty laugh at everything. read an email yesterday about little things and how God has placed us when He intends for us to be, where we're the safest and we're there for a purpose. So i told myself that since i'm placed in sch, i shall just enjoy it and thank Him.

results will be out soon, predicted thurs or fri. probably be anxious the night before. haha remember, give thanks! and i'm looking forward to seeing all the BPians and my dear 4L1 again, so so so miss them all. =D

=)

the past 7 days of jan.

2008-01-07T15:16:00.000-08:00

and so we're into the 7th day of the month of January. Haha and orientation at AJC was fun! (:

OG 36 - Yoruba. Alliance : Behanzin.
Haha had a great time with my OG, as everyone started off as strangers, and of course, became good friends at the end of the day. Orientation basically was those usual subject combination talks, ice-breakers, mass dances, games, teaching of school cheers and song and on the last day, there'll always be this campfire. Haha... but nonetheless, it was fun! went like really high on the last day! cheering loudly, doing those crazy dance moves, that bu-yao-ban-jia dance and cheer, and laughing at the funny things that happened. hee and was really worn out by the end of the 3day orientation programme. :D oh yah, and a few of us rushed back from aj to bp on friday, to catch the sec 1 orientation campfire. and to meet up with our sec4 classmates. haha we're old school. XD and realised how much i miss BP, the teachers and my friends... aww.. heehee.

kinda had some uncertainty, okay not some but ALOT(haha), before sch started, and how i really don't like that new year feeling... the feelings that things will change, how we'll all get busy again, ( you know, school can be such a bore and chore sometimes...) and of course, the olevel results that will come out real soon. but i shall just leave that aside for now.. haha.

Number one goal: To have God first in all things, and a growing love for the Lord
Its so so easy to just jot that goal down you know, yet its so so hard to actually keep it. pray (:
and i finally get the meaning of the song if i tried. because i told myself how much i must let God rule in every aspect of my life, and i tried so hard these few days, until i failed, simply because i relied on my own effort. Its His strength, His love, His patience, His wisdom that shines through me, and apart from Him, i can do nothing.

i'll be facing the giants the year ahead, and i know that with God, all things are possible and with faith, i'll still be able to echo the words in 2Tim4:7. (:

oh and Happy early birthday yvonne! my dearest cousin! :D

the sight of thee may be so rare,
but never forget, i'll always care. (:

i'll miss 2007

2007-12-29T21:55:00.000-08:00

2007 has been a great year.

2008 will be even better.

Dear Lord, its just amazing to see how you've worked in each and every one of our lives. Although i admit that i'm afraid to face a new year, and an unknown future, but i know that somehow, You'll bring me through. There's a whole new adventure waiting out there for me, and its going to be exciting.

Who am I? I am Yours...

29 dec

2007-12-29T09:56:00.000-08:00

how can two leaves be so different when they're from the same tree? okay maybe thats not a very good analogy but thats all i can think of.

she doesn't even know how she can hurt someone. To her, i'm just a stupid freak. its scary how people change, and you can't do anything about it. if only i could take a magic wand and turn her back. is it anybody's fault? sometimes it just seems so helpless, but i cannot give up.
maybe i haven't tried real hard, but how hard is hard? what on earth must i do? sometimes people just don't show concern the way you see it.
i try to understand and see her world but i suppose it doesn't matter. she simply sees me as a stupid freak. ouch, that hurt.

forget it, i just needed to type something out.

And still, there's no doubt, that God is good, all the time.

CHRISTmas!

2007-12-26T16:26:00.000-08:00

wishing one and all a very BLESSED CHRISTMAS!

haha that wish lagged by a day but still.. heh. christmas has come and gone, like how fast is that? really fast. the 16th and 22nd christmas singing project was really good! Praise the Lord from whom all blessings flow! i'm sure we all had a great time of fellowship and fun together, also remembering our purpose, to proclaim in our hearts that Christ is Lord. Even though we were not allowed to preach the gospel directly and openly, we did so with the songs we sang, the skit that was put up, and the narration that spoke so much of Christ as the Saviour of the world. Overall, we can truly say that God was working behind the scenes and in the hearts of the people, that all went well. I do not know if anyone decided to find out more about the Lord Jesus Christ or that anyone was saved, but one thing i know, is that the seed has been sown, and in time, it will grow (:

its seriously hard to think that sch will be starting soon, and sadly, means that holidays are ending. why why why does time have to pass that fast? haha will i be ready for the new year, that brings along new challenges? it feels as though i'm starting all over again... gotta make new year resolutions and stick to them! The future is in God's loving hands, and therefore, fear not!

oh and i watched high school musical 2 already! haha like finally... and yes, i know that i'm slow. =P hee... i just refused to watch it on the internet, and don't ask me why, because i have no idea either. XD

there's games day tmrw! yay, play! time to exercise, after all the eating.. i'll probably not be able to squeeze into my sch uniform on the first day of sch. HAHA! and i've concluded that, when i have nothing to do, i'll feel like eating. thats bad, isn't it? XD

haha just feel like saying, God is good, all the time (:

you just won't leave my mind right? haha fine, stay there. (:

YC' 07

2007-12-17T16:11:00.000-08:00

BACK FROM YOUTH CAMP 2007! =D

haha camp was great! and i'm suffering from post youth camp blues now... hee. this camp has been extremely challenging and yet exciting for me lah, having to serve in many ways, as an assitant games group leader, dorm leader and pianist. and it was all worthwhile and for the glory of God!

TRUE group rocks! haha and all the other games groups too lah. =D and i so miss my dorm okay! - consisting of drey, lydia, danna, nat, chloe and myself! haha making melody in my heart! XD and Bible study session were so fun and interesting! - consisting of Aunty Akiko, kerriann, claudia, danna, chun mei and myself.

hee campers' night was great as usual, all the super lame and hilarious skits. =D but nonetheless, entertaining. Preach the word was a time of great encouragment, to see all the 15 brothers take the stage and share what God has inspired them to in philippians. Olympic bible quiz was exciting! haha all the memorising, and let's hide the word of God in our hearts (: and yes, not to forget the fun games that helped to build up team spirit!

youth camp was awesome lah, and i can't wait for next year's!

Take my hand, hold it tight, dear Lord i pray.
Calm my heart, still my soul, open my ears
So that i may hear Your still small voice that's speaking to me
All my life, let me be
One after Your own heart.

feeling random

2007-12-07T15:41:00.000-08:00

haha my loves! ah peng, where are you? :D

had 03 chalet on wed, thurs and fri, but i stayed for one night only and left with ms lim early in the morning to go home to SLEEP. haha i couldn't take it already XD and if i wouldn't want to be sleeping during special ministry.. hee.

haha chalet was fun! though it kept raining but it was nonethless, FUN! haha we had alot of fun laughing, taking random pictures ( jiaying and dolly send them to me! ), washing the food, waiting to eat and reminiscing about our past four years in BP, with caijun and luqman as our entertainers. their conversations are funny enough already lah. haha then we ate, cleared up and waited for ah peng and iris to come, and then headed for a nightwalk! haha played murderer while seeking shelter from the rain at a pavilion near the playground. and we realized that ms lim cannot count. XD hahaha

after we returned to the chalet, went to the common toilet to bathe! like no one wanted to bathe in the chalet toilet because its like oily and had corn pieces all over, yucks. haha then we headed for our super early macs breakfast! HOTCAKES!!! haha had a craving for them.. yumm! and then we walked back to chalet. i was super tired already.. and then left with ms lim for home. haha nice bus ride! ms lim's so funny. XD hee love 03!!

a few more days to youth camp... its going to be a challenging, tiring and fun week i suppose. and BYMET pple are coming back soon! haha.. i wonder when will i get the chance to go overseas for mission trip.. so cool and meaningful. i'm still waiting for God's call. =D

and my dad's a great painter, he just painted his room, and put in some creativity. NICE! and my mom's so proud of him. HAHA really!

and my brother's so cute, he came into my sister's room this morning at 11am, while sam and i were still sleeping, and said, " Aiya... why these two pigs still sleeping..." and went out of the room. then sam and i laughed. haha he's so adorable!

A life goes by
romantic dreams must die
so i bid mine goodbye
And never knew
So close was waiting
Waiting here with you
And now, forever, i know
All that i want is to hold you
So close.

i like the song =)

=)

2007-12-04T00:12:00.000-08:00

just look at my two darlings =D so adorable! haha

gee, the holidays are whizzing by so fast. i just came back from malaysia not too long ago, after a visit to Aunty Brenda's and to see my niece and nephew. haha so cute! attended dvbs for a day. then had singing pracs, and soon, i'll be off to youth camp already. really fast... haha and oh yah, not to forget, 03 chalet! hee.

just remember, God is good, all the time (:

=)

=)

2007-11-21T12:41:00.000-08:00

actually i can't think of what to update. haha just that prom is over and it was fun! but i'm kinda lazy to do the details, after uploading so many photos! haha (: going to miss BP alot....

feel like watching something, but i dunno what that something is. haha and i feel like laughing. hahahaha =D

christmas, isn't christmas
till it happens in your heart.
somewhere deep inside you,
is where christmas really starts.
so give your heart to Jesus,
you'll discover when you do.
that its christmas, really christmas, for you.

gosh, its stuck in my head. and the words are nice (: have you given your heart to Jesus? i hope you'll do.

oh and Happy birthday baba! ( constance :D )

holidays!

2007-11-19T11:25:00.000-08:00

hohoho olevels have been over for almost a week? haha now thats fast, and a little hard to imagine.

Finally, the long awaited holiday is here but apparently i haven't got alot of excitement, probably because of the busy days that i'd been having, busy shopping for prom, clearing all my stuff and running here and there. haha i just wanna sit at home, take a bag of chocolate biscuits and watch tv! now that sounds more like a holiday. hahaha =D

i really wanna thank God for carrying me through the olevel period, and not only that, for carrying me through each day. He has been really good lah, and let me tell you why. See, i had a history paper on like the first week of olevels and i'm not really good at scoring for history. Plus, there were many chaps to study as you don't know what exactly will come out lah. and i started real late studying for history ( maybe even just the day before). yah and i basically studied like 2 chaps lah, and read through some others. and yah, like how in the world will the chaps that i studied guarantee a come out? the possibility is like so little! and wah i really prayed hard, and told myself just do my best lah. even if the chaps i studied do not come out, just do my best at SBQ and yah do what i can and give thanks. AND thankfully, what i studied came out! and it was questions that i prepared for also. So i was like, feeling a major major relief! Praise the Lord! =D

then came ss paper. haha which is a half paper cause combine with history. and yah many chaps to study also, plus must study by themes. my head almost crashed. haha and i had bio paper the same day as ss paper lah. all the memory work! many brain cells died during that preparation. heehee XD yah and again what i studied came out lah, though this time i studied more chaps. so really thank God lah. see, God's been real good har? =D haha and all the other papers were manageable i suppose. shall not worry about results and leave it all to God. God is good, all the time!

haha i wouldn't say the olevel period was a very stressful time lah, maybe because my papers were like really s-p-r-e-a-d out and the whole thing lasted for almost a month. all the waiting nearby made me burst. haha and i had dreams of papers that had gone past. hahaha okay, maybe i was stressed but i didn't know. oh well XD

and i really thank the Lord for those who kept praying for us and all those encouraging smses. it really made my day (: thank you all so much!

and alot has happened throughout the week. and much more will in time to come. but i have yet to settle down my thoughts. haha and i love singing! whee....

i realized that i'm pretty fond of talking to myself, talking about issues i'd never have the courage to face in reality. and yet its not a good thing, because it all boils down to that same thing. when someone asked me, i realized how much it meant. and i felt the pain once again, at the thought of losing something you realize you thought you lost but never did. yah, and it was just at the thought. imagine if it really happened.

God may let you know at the last minute, but He'll let you know. =)

dashing!

2007-11-08T11:35:00.000-08:00

haha 5 more days! 5 more days!

loves! =D

graduation day

2007-10-05T15:54:00.000-07:00

Friends forever and always....

It was grad day today and i am so going to miss 4L1 a whole lot!!! We've been classmates for two years, and for some of us, four years. thats like so long! =) and i am really glad to have such a great bunch of friends!

I really am going to miss the school and my class alot. and i still can't believe that i have graduated. haha XD i'll miss all those crazy times we had in class, laughing and making fun of each other, how we got angry with each other for being irritating, the tough times we've been through and how we stuck together and made it till the end. And now, there's just one thing left for us to conquer, the Olevels! 4L1, the end is in sight! Let's run the race together and emerge victorious! =D Love you all!!

Olevels practical starts umm, next week. =/ and then it will all come and go by in a flash, i hope = last paper is on 13nov! and after that, i'm free!! but its still so long...... rahh.. haha

i seriously feel quite worn out, studying all the time. and its really hard to grow spiritually during this time as you like grab whatever time you have to study and by the end of the day, you're totally exhausted. But God has been gracious, popping up appropriate verses throughout the week to remind me to be patient, to wait on the Lord, to trust Him and realize that there is so much more to His plan for me. sometimes i go through the day like a robot, pushing aside whatever feelings i have until i feel so empty, and am only filled with book knowledge, maths and stuff. and i EAT to keep myself awake. haha i must have put on like so much... oh dear.... =P

okay, i shall proceed with my labour. I am so feeling-less right now. good or bad?

love can make miracles, change everything. Lift you from the darkness and make your heart sing. love is forever, when you fall, its the greatest power of all....

fabulous

2007-09-21T14:41:00.000-07:00

i just thought of something cool. haha

yet another week of school, revision, tv.. pretty much the same old stuff each day, and like someone once said, No Life. haha i do kind of agree but hey, at least i do enjoy studying.. well it beats having nothing to do. watch too much tv and your eyes will get painful and the tv will explode. long hours on the com can surely cause one's eyesigt to deteriorate and the bill will go high high. sleeping too much is a little waste of time. going out everyday will burn a hole in your pocket. so how? STUDY. haha ain't i just a faithful student? XD bet someone will faint upon hearing this... hahaha

okay its like so near the BIG o's and time's just ticking away.. the feeling's so strange.. i hope time will pass quickly because i just wanna get over and done with the exams. yet at the same time, i am not 100% prepared and the thought of graduating does hold me back a little. 4 years in the sch and having all that i have contributed, i'll definitely feel attached. i'll miss my friends and classmates the most. if only things didn't have to change... i'll surely miss my bananas! (:

haha oh HSM 2!! haven't watched.. but the songs are nice... in particular two of them ( you are the music in me and i gotta go my own way ) haha stuck in my head. i just love jamming away with gabriella. HAHA XDXDXDXDXD

got ALOT of papers to do this weekend, i think i'll just faint.

i don't exactly like things just hanging there, but what else can i do?

* - if life were a musical, would you sing along with me?

haha i thought of that myself, and that was my something cool. =D

your crowning glory

2007-09-10T17:13:00.000-07:00

Some girls are fair,
Some are jolly and fit.
Some have a well-bred air, or a well-honed wit.
Each one's a jewel, with a singular shine,
A work of art with its own rare design.

Dear little girl, you are terribly blessed,
But its your heart of gold i love the best.
And that will be your crowning glory
Your whole life through
It'll always be your crowning glory,
the most glorious part of you.

Some boys can walk ( some guys can groove )
Strike an elegant pose ( wear the really hip clothes )
Some seem to have no faults ( but we never like those )
They'll praise your eyes ( your melodious laugh )
Call you more lovely than others by half.

The one who's right ( my gorgeous prince )
Will be honest and true ( he'll believe in me too )
And prize your heart of gold the way i do
He'll know that, that will be your crowning glory,
Your whole life through
Your love will see that its your crowning glory
The most glorious part... of you.

That will be your crowning glory
Darling, when they tell your story
They'll call your heart of gold your crowning glory
The most glorious part... of you!

thank you Lord for everything...

sept hol

2007-09-07T14:10:00.000-07:00

and in a flash, its friday. which means 2 more days of holidays before the sch term starts again. =/ oh well, it was a nice one week break anyway.

lets see...
Monday: spent the morning doing some maths and bio. and headed down to causeway for a seoul garden lunch cum dinner with 203 coconuts! haha had a whole lot of fun cooking and EATING and laughing and just catching up lah. it was nice to have gathered and have Ms Lim in our midst again, after her 2 year study in Australia. took many pics! heehee

Tuesday: went to sembawang park with my family and then to causeway for lunch. haha EAT again. and then we headed home, and it was mugging during the rest of the day.

Wed: had chem lesson in the morning, and mr lim came late by nearly an hour. so we waited so PATIENTLY for him. and em and nat started telling me about the different funny things we say, and all my aunty-ness. HAHA oh well, i can't help it. XD then later in the afternoon, met up with dar and amos to go and buy the stuff for the thurs bbq. bought so many things at sheng siong and carrefour, and haha it was so funny fighthing to push the trolley. =P

Thurs: had bio and chem prac in the morning, and it was pretty interesting. and nat took off her braces already! and she's wearing retainers now. i need awhile to get used to a nat without colourful teeth. XD heehee.. and then it was prepare food, games day, and bbq! busy busy day...

and today its friday. made cheese and sesame scones in the morning. turned out pretty tasty.. haha after my last cake was a flop. and my brother's watched lion king this morning and has advanced to shark tale. heh

i don't know how to describe what i'm feeling now... oh and i've just finished another Aunt Dimity book, and picked out alot of great phrases. i love doing that.. because it helps expression. haha

and i just know that it has to be you...

prelims over!

2007-08-31T14:07:00.000-07:00

YES! prelims are OVER! :D since yesterday. and i had a really hectic day. haha

let's see.. after Bio paper 1 yesterday, we had to stay back for chem practical for i dunno what reason and the teachers didn't even explain. like we just did some practical and worksheets. haha and i had to stay back in sch to do some ceramic tile making thingy for graduation.. it made me so frustrated... like i wanted to just enjoy, play, relax after exams and i had to be stuck in sch to do such stuff. oh well nvm since i'm graduating, so just do it for the sch. haha

but it started at 3pm and my practical ended at 1pm. so you know what suggestion Jeremy said to help me pass time?? he told me to go and BANG the wall real hard, and 2 hours later then i'll wake up. HAHA! i found it really funny lah.. especially the way he said it. haha and it was raining so the weather didn't help. but at least i had dolly and gang to accompany me.. and we played a little netball! haha fun!

and so did my ceramics stuff and then quickly rushed home cause going to watch ratatouille later! rush rush... haha the show is NICE! i laughed and laughed and had alot of actions going on.. well, thats the way i watch shows. heehee XD nice show, go watch. :D

and the day ended for me like that.

i really thank God for helping me through the exams and all the time lah. i know it may sound like so common to hear pple saying i thank God i thank God, but i really do. Even though i wasn't very strong spiritually during the exams because of all the studying and stuff, He still kept me through and yet i still fail Him.

been thinking alot about alot of things these few days and realised how hard life can be. its even harder to allow God to control your life especially when you have freewill and our human nature is prone to sin. so we have to constantly be on our guard and be watchful, lest we fall into temptation. Another thing is wait. Patience my dear, patience.

i shall play all i want until sunday. and monday, its back to muggging. Don't even know what my prelims will turn out to be like but i have prayed that i will give thanks and not complain. the end of olevels seems near, yet so far.

" one alone is not enough, you need both together....
Winter Summer Moon and Stars! Lesson number one!
Like a rock, i must be strong.
Like an oak, i must stand firm.
Cut quick, like my blade.
Think fast, unafraid. " -Mulan II

haha i just like the song. =)

prelims!

2007-08-16T22:19:00.000-07:00

haha i like this picture alot. =D the 2 little kids are so CUTE!!!

into the 3rd paper for prelims and i just want to thank God for allowing me to stay cool and calm and simply do my best! and when prelims are over, i shall be FREE for a few days, and then its back to mugging again and having to face reality of results. =X

haha oh wells, haven't been feeling really good these few days because i don't know why. how i wish mickey was with me. hee...

Anyway, thought i'll shall something nice:

Though i am His sheep, i am still prone to stray; So Jesus in love sends afflictions my way;
The lessons i've learnt in this school of deep pain, have taught me to follow my Lord once again.

can't wait till i really become an AUNTY/OLD WOMAN that i can just sit back and rest and watch the world go by... haha =D

random

2007-08-08T20:55:00.000-07:00

haha happy national day! and upcoming, Happy Birthday Grace, wesley, melodie, Liling and yuen see!

had alot of fun today, national day celebration plus sch bazaar. haha for the first time, i enjoyed the parade segment because my class is so cute! everyone was like holding the flags, singing and cheering throughout lah, for example, the st john members were standing near us, so we went " rooney! rooney! rooney! rooney!.... " because khairunnisa was part of the st john and we could see her! ( her nickname is rooney haha) and everyone was so crazy about jiaxin in that super smart NCC uniform( oh not the green leafy one) and ( according to shuyi, faith, azie and some others.. who thought he looked hot) but we could only admire from afar... hahaha! don't let jiaxin hear this, otherwise his ego will be blown BIGGER. hahaha anway, i love 4L1! our last national day together.. and in BP.. will kinda miss it lah.. haha

hmms, been into reading lately, after been started off again by Aunt Dimity's books. and recently finished 'the tears of my soul' by sokreaksa, a true, touching and inspiring story of how he survived the khmer rouge brutal regime and how he became a christian. Now embarking on, 'In the presence of my enemies' by Gracia Burnham, of how these american missionaries were captured and went through a year of terror... loads of great lessons to learn. =D and i can expand my vocab. HAHA

the flower that blooms in adversity, is the rarest and most beautiful of them all - Mulan.

i'd still choose you.

i wanna hear nothing no more

2007-07-20T00:31:00.000-07:00

God knows our burdens and our crosses,
Those things that hurt, our trials and losses.
He cares for every soul that cries,
And wipes the tears from weeping eyes. -- Brandt

should i congratulate myself?
because even if something happens, or something's been said, something that hurts,
i can remain indifferent.
i close an eye
and though my heart cries
i'd rather no one know.

alright, CUT THE CRAP MORITZA THE 2nd. haha
and here's MORITZA THE 1st now. :D
prelims are in, lets count.. countable days i think 24? and 90plus days to the BIG O.
gah!!! loads of things to cover... to all who are labouring, JIAYOU!!! =)

love aunt dimity's stories, miss aunt dimity's stories. shall try one of those recipies one day. yums! i've been feeing really GREEDY these few days, bingeing on chocs and bread. terrible me. but i have a bunch of classmates who LOVE eating too! hooray! we eat and eat, people eat to live, we live to eat. how funny

Nat's getting funnier, always laughing which makes me laugh. Emmy's getting prettier. haha and ah peng's getting crazier. bananas unite!

lets hope we all get A1 or A2 for chinese, then all go out MAKAN! and thank peng lao shi!! *crosses fingers*

gospel rally was great! and it was even greater to know that people were interested in salvation! and a few were counselled! May the work that has been started in them continue to grow and yield success. The way of God is the way it should be. =)

Pluto whimpers and Mickey tells him, " You're my bestest pal. "

BLESSED

2007-07-03T17:37:00.000-07:00

The King of Kings is with me.

The King of Kings is in me.

The King of Kings leads me.

THe King of Kings loves me.

And He loves you too.

There's a gospel rally at my church at Bethesda Hall (Depot walk). It is an annual event that we have to reach out to people who have yet to accept Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Saviour. We have a mime ( Very nice! ), a song item, a sermon ( which is like a message given by the speaker who is from our church , slideshow and of course refreshments ( I think ) haha.

Its on 13, 14 and 15 of July, Fri, Sat and Sun respectively. It starts at around 7:30pm. You can come on either one of the days. Its really interesting! Let me know if you're interested ya? the hotline's 91707765.

Do come! (:

life is a highway

2007-06-22T21:21:00.000-07:00

2 Corinthians 4:8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

Simply love this verse! because it tells us that we're empowered by God and when the going gets tough, the tough gets a-going!

2 more days to school and how 'nice' is that. haha, where all the stress comes in, homework piles up AGAIN, responsibilities come again, exhaustion. oh dear, but well, let's just endure for another few more months! We're strong, we can make it.

i'll just be missing watching KIDS central with my brother from like around 10:30am to 3pm. heh, the cartoons are pretty nice actually, and brings you back to the world where everything was once innocent and simple. its nice having a 4 year old brother around, and a 13 year old sister around, and nice being the eldest. I have to admit it is not an easy task, but well, they're fun! haha Thank God for them!

my brother is just so cute and naughty, i just wish he'll grow up to be a good christian boy, tall, handsome, kind, play the drums! play guitar and piano! haha and be thoughtful, matured, hardworking. HAHA okay i shall not stress the poor little kid, just want him to be the guy God wants him to be! and for my sister, i just hope she'll work hard, do well in sch, enjoy her sch life, make good friends and build up her faith in God. and i wanna be there for them, and do my part as a sister. Thank you Lord, for what happened, because indeed, there was something better you had to give me. but i'll always pray and hope...

love the show cars! and the song life is a highway! heh, teaches you to cherish the people around you and slow down in life because you never know what you're missing if you're going too fast and people can't catch up.

i would say that cartoons, especially disney ones have a lot to speak to me. I find them most enjoyable, inspiring and derive my dreams from there. haha

i really hope i would be able to do my quiet time day and night, even after sch starts. it'll be most wonderful to start and end the day with God, and of course go through it with him!

4L1, let's continue to strive ya! =)

olevels, i'm not afraid of you! Come and get me if you can! XD

cause i still believe, believe in love.

Hymns of FAITH 120

2007-06-18T11:19:00.000-07:00

O JESUS, King most wonderful,

Thou Conqueror renowned;

Thou sweetness most ineffable,

In whom all joys are found;

When once Thou visitest the heart,

Then truth begins to shine;

Then earthly vanities depart,

Then kindles love divine.

Jesus! Thy mercies are untold,

Through each returning day;

Thy love exceeds a thousand-fold

Whatever we can say.

May every heart confess Thy name,

And ever Thee adore;

And, seeking Thee, itself inflame

To seek Thee more and more.

Thee may our tongues for ever bless;

Thee may we love alone:

And ever in our lives express

The image of Thine own.

Grant us, while here on earth we stay,

Thy love to feel and know;

And when from hence we pass away,

To us Thy glory show.

Latin, C. 11th century, tr. EDWARD CASWALL, 1814-78.

a hymn i came across the week of ABC. though i didn't go, i'm glad that it was enjoyable for them! though i wish i had gone... but well, there was some other purpose for me! and to test!

really can't comprehend

2007-06-06T20:56:00.000-07:00

this world is not my home.

my home is in heaven.

living a life of cinders

2007-05-30T21:47:00.000-07:00

long time since i've touched my blog. haha. well, not very long though... and the June holidays are here, well not exactly holidays for sec 4s but well, better than nothing! anw, got ISP ( intensive study program ) until 6 june. and after that it'll be MORE MUGGING. like no RESTING. but i suppose a once in a while rest is no harm right? feeling lazy right now at this very moment. after a day of ISP and CHOIR. garh!

had chinese o's on mon. haha was rather nervous in the morning but thankfully prayer worked it out. made a few dumb mistakes like writing my answer on the wrong question number!!! and thankfully someone else did so and alerted the tcher.. so she sort of warned us.. to look at the question carefully.. then i was like oh my gosh.. and thankfully she said just change the question number when i was about to rewrite the whole thing on the CORRECT question... phews..

during paper but told myself to keep going. everything's gonna be fine. haha.. well i shall not keep my hopes high and see how it goes... everyone else, dun worry about it too.. just do our best for oral and listening! get that A1!

can't imagine sacrifing another about 5 months or so just for a few weeks of olevels.. i'm like a lifeless person, but maybe not so. cause that's not the way i see myself. i do have interesting moments too you know... and not so interesting ones too...

hmm and the mars vs venus show just ended ytd, love that show! ahh so sweet.. and the songs!
wenwen! so cute!! XD

i just lost something, a very big thing, dunno if i will ever find it back. what can i do? let it be lost forever? or go all out, climb the mountains, and find it back? Don't Know.

to fear God, is the beginning of wisdom. i can't wait to do some evangelising stuff after my o's. and do some volunteer work. i pray!

while talking to amos that day, i realised one of my dreams: to be able to star in a professional musical along with many other famous and professional actors and actressess, something like phantom of the opera. and also, to be able to be the voice for you know like cartoon shows. haha cool right? first, i must find a unique character for myself. haha

i have always dreamed,
that my life would be
like a fairytale,
A perfect fantasy....

angel of music

2007-04-20T07:58:00.001-07:00

where's my angel of music, my phantom?

haha phantom of the opera craze is now in my world because the musical is so so so awesome! fantastic! breathtaking! Excellent! Magical! SO WHOA!!!

10 years down the road pls come to my musical, i'll be performing in the phantom of the opera in the esplanade. haha yeah in my dreams.

finally SYF is OVER. and we got a silver. we were relieved and yet disappointed because we were expecting a gold. but somehow when we started singing on stage, oh well nvm. we did our best. we sang from our hearts!

i'm proud of my choir and i'm proud of our fruit of labour. (:

had eng and chi orals too.. triple stress in a day.. can you imagine? haha i wonder how i pulled through. you know how? through prayer... and yet i felt that i should have prayed more sincerely... and not only depend on God during times i need to but all the time. The Lord is my shepherd, i will not fail.

i was really stressed today, and i was never so nervous when singing with a choir before. well, i guess we'll all have our first times. really sleepy now. and got alot to do during the weekend. revision! garh!!

exactly why?

2007-04-13T14:05:00.000-07:00

oh yeah finally after almost 2 months of not blogging... i have resurfaced in this blog world again... morsha come morsha go... XD

i have quite alot of things to say.. and alot of things i just can't understand..

wonder what its like to have a friend, who will really go through thick and thin with you, always there to encourage and motivate. even if you're in the wrong, that friend will correct you in the nicest manner ever without hurting your feelings. that friend will stand up for you whenever someone accuses you or says something unkind or discouraging. that friend will be there to listen to you and always make you feel like you're someone important to him/her. that friend will put your interests above his/hers and go all out just so that you'll be happy.
i guess we won't really find a friend like that on this earth.. but i know of one.. and that friend is, JESUS. JESUS truly is the answer to this troubled world. unfortunately, He reaches to many, but not many will grab His warm and gentle hand.

Luke 12:48 From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked. I always think upon this verse and wonder if this is the reason why i have so many responsiblities and pple always expect me to not make mistakes? i mean thats the way i feel about it and its pretty stressful. and the thing is , i can't find anyone whom i can rely on. yes, indeed i have been given much, so much will be expected. can anyone help?

received a really discouraging comment today that kinda shook me. well, so what if i can't run as fast as others? at least i try and participate. is everything about winning? NO ITS NOT. the glory of this earth will eventually fade away but the glory of the Lord will remain as bright as ever. I'm so glad i can pray. otherwise, i would have collapsed by now.

and i realise that not everything thing that you do will be appreciated by others because its a competitive world we live in today. fast going, and who cares. everybody pretty much puts themselves above others. and its probably why there's no JOY. to have JOY, we must have JESUS, OTHERS followed by YOURSELF. Get it? yourself is last. i guess being selfless is hard, but not being selfless is harder.

the world is changing rapidly, and there are pple advancing and pple being left behind. i'll be with the pple who are left behind, to encourage them, to support them and advance with them. Dear Lord, please give me a heart for the less fortunate and those that are still lost outside Thy Kingdom.

whatever i do, i do my best.

and i'm so afraid that you'll change someday......... will you change?

oh my oh my

2007-01-28T22:02:00.000-08:00

BOO! haha haven't heard from me for such a long time... missed me right? haha and i am like talking to nobody..

sch sch sch sch sch stress stress stress not enough sleep not enough sleep homework homework tests tests tests lessons lessons teachers teachers choir choir choir.. been revolving round all these... so boring. but i thank God for His word that refreshes me everyday and keeps me going along with the prayers and concern by my friends!

i so can't wait until like olevels are over!

Don't sacrifice your dreams just because others lack vision. some pple kinda broke my confidence in certain things... and i'm picking up the pieces right now... because i won't let my confidence just be blown away just because some pple don't care BUT I DO CARE.

i have a dream, to be a teacher and friend to those children in Africa, Cambodia and children who need help all around the world. i'll work for my dream =)

see you soon sometime someplace somewhere. God bless!

2007 is here

2007-01-01T20:33:00.000-08:00

HAPPY AND BLESSED NEW YEAR TO ALL!

and 2006 is gone in a flash, and 2007 is here. A year of new experiences and challenges and excitement? haha. its going to be a trying year for me ( thats what my jie said ) and i guess for alot of other pple who will be taking olevels somewhere in november. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh and i can't wait until its over.. so so over.

i thank God for blessing me with a most wonderful 2006 and all the memories that come along with it. sure enjoyed myself and built closer friendship bonds. heehee as well as grown closer to God alot alot! (= mann do i miss the year 2006.. and i still remember the fears and worries that went through my mind at the end of 2005 because i so didn't want 2006 to come but i'm glad it did! and so i'm going to say a warm welcome to 2007. haha whats with all the years... lalala

helped out at the children's programme with Nat, amanda and elsia today during workers' retreat. a great way to start the year doing something meaningful. haha kids are so super cute and naughty and noisy and active. and we ended up worn out. haha.. and i wanted to sleep when i reached home but my brother forced me and sam to go swimming with him. and seeing his cute whimpers.. we just can't help but go. haha.. and i slept after that.

spent new year's eve at von's house.. EATING SO MUCH and watching material girls. yay i like that show! haha..

i'm sleepy and sch's starting on wed. and tmr is tues. and diagnostic tests are on the 2nd week. YIKES! YIKES! YIKES!

forever running but losing the race, were it not for GRACE.

glad tidings of comfort and joy!

2006-12-25T20:47:00.000-08:00

Wishing one and all a very Blessed Christmas! and a really magical one! (=

without Jesus, there would be no Christmas.

Today in the town of David, a Saviour has been born to you; He is Christ the Lord. luke 2:11

GLORY TO GOD IN THE HIGHEST! PEACE ON EARTH GOODWILL TO MEN!

christmas has been real different for me the past 2 years, because i only knew the true meaning of Christmas last year, when i was saved.

In the past, christmas, to me used to be a time of presents, family and friends, food, christmas tree, log cake, turkey and ham. But now its different.

Christmas, is a time to remember My Saviour's birth and with his birth, He did the will of God the Father, and died on the cross to save the world from their sins. and all Jesus ever asked is that we believe in His name, believe that He died to save us from our sins and that in believing in Him, shall we have eternal life in Heaven. This salvation that He has offered us, is Free and wonderful. Its the best gift of Christmas ever.

may you all experience the wonderful joy and peace of Christmas, and let Christ dwell in our hearts this very festive season. =)

watched polar express just now, and thats why i have the magical christmas feeling. haha

when christmas comes to town...

lala

2006-12-19T01:41:00.000-08:00

HUIMIN REQUESTED ME TO UPDATE SO I'M LISTENING TO HER AND UPDATING NOW! heehee.... huimin, honoured? i updated at your request.. wahaha and what are you doing up so late arh.. not getting your beauty sleep har.. haha

okay, so what should i update? first, i have to say, i can't believe holidays are ending! okay wait, before that, christmas is coming!! =D a time to remember the birth of Christ, our Saviour who came down to this earth to die for us!

and i dunno what to update about.. only that von's staying over at my house for a few days and sam and i will be going to stay over at her house tmr and she's staying over again on thurs and fri. get it? oh nvm

been eating alot the past few days, thanks to sam and von as well... tempting me with food and me tempting them with the words, I AM HUNGRY. haha! we went to orchard today and eat eat eat! bought each other christmas presents. so LOL... XD and we laughed alot as we each had an embarrasing moment. HAHA!!

SAM'S EMBARRASSING MOMENT:
von, sam and i were like at cold storage picking our sushi... and there were some sushi that were packed already with the price labels while others you have to pick, put them in a box and ask the lady at the counter to tag the label for you. so von picked hers, and brought it to the counter to tag the label, said thank you and was about to leave, when sam, stretched out her box WHICH WAS ALREADY LABELLED and wanted to hand it to the woman to TAG AGAIN. and von was like "what you doing? yours got tag already what" and sam was so paiseh she quickly say oh i din't see. THE LABEL WAS SO BIG! she cannot see. haha so cute lah this girl.. and so, von, sam and i were laughing away...

VON'S EMBARRASSING MOMENT:
and so we were happily eating our sushi and decided to stay at a spot to eat. so we walked near the lift and stopped there. while we were happily eating, a lady said EXCUSE ME and von had to move cause the lady wanted to use the lift. but it was somehow crowded there and von cldn't like move away quick and fast and had to squeeze through. and so she BANGED into a huge dustbin with a LOUD BANG. and she looked so shocked. and sam and i were laughing away.....

MOR'S EMBARRASSING MOMENT:
and so we walked back from heeren to taka with our footware soaking wet because it was raining. and i decided to bring von up to see some billabong pencil box at taka. we were on the escalator... and then i walked and one of my slipper came off my feet with a loud noise and i walked a step with it with a shocked look. and von and sam were laughing away......

yeah our embarrasing moments. and other moments that were so funny.. we just kept laughing and laughing..

its freezing cold now... just finished the lit poem thing. so argh! and phews! my eyes super tired. haha

you know its just too little too late.

I miss YC2006!

2006-12-11T10:55:00.000-08:00

Willingly, He came to this world

Walked and talked with sinners young and old

Love that He showed, Love that he gave,

Love that brought Him to Calvary

Calvary, the place where i will never ever forget

At the cross, where righteousness and mercy truly met

It was there at the cross,

My Saviour gave His life

He gave the greatest gift at the cross

Following, the steps of my Lord

Letting Him take control of my life

In His way, In His will

My Lord i pray, change me within

Calvary, the place where i will never ever forget

At the cross, my Saviour gave His precious life for me

My heart will be thy throne

My life is wholly thine

Change me teach me and mould me,

In thy will

So all through my life

Through pain or tears or joy

I pray that Christ is always seen in me

Calvary, the place where i will never ever forget

At the cross, My Saviour gave His precious life for me

My heart will be thy throne

My life is wholly thine

Change me, teach me and mould me,

In thy will

Change me, teach me and mould me,

In thy will

thats the theme song for YC2006! and i'm sure this camp has truly spoken to the hearts of many of the youths at camp as it did to mine. Camp was really enjoyable and enriching! Port Dickson is a nice place! I MISS CAMP!!!!!!!!

i care, do i?

2006-11-29T21:37:00.000-08:00

stunned.

charlene,si xing, ke en, jiajia, denise, hannah, anna, wei li, basil, nelson, kelvin, kevin. My DVBS kids! they are so cute!!! and really active!!! hahaha..

into the 2nd day of dvbs and everything's really great so far! tmr's the last day... bet we'll all have loads of fun! =D hee

i can't believe that youth camp is like in how many days time! so fast! haha i din realise until i was talking to mervyn and he was telling me how busy he'll be the next few days.. then he said sunday.. blah blah then must pack for youth camp and next day gone. then i was like oh yah! so fast hor! haha.. youth camp oh youth camp...

i have nothing else to say. oh wait, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI MIN AND DANNA!! <3!!! HUGS

Refreshing!

2006-11-27T21:27:00.000-08:00

i mixed chocolate milk with the normal kind of milk and it tastes D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S. YUMMS! =D so nice! so yummy! hee

boy am i excited about youth camp! because the camp tcher's real interesting! we had open sunday for ss... and he taught about Matt 8:1-17 in a really interesting way! so i guess we're gonna get loads of insights of the bible during youth camp! IN STEP WITH CHRIST!

had a yummy lunch with my family today! went to this place called MELT. buffet style! woooo.. i was so excited lah.. haha when it comes to food.. heeheehee... the dessert was so cool can.. there was chocolate fountain! haha! and the toilet very nice.. sam and i hanged out there awhile.. and they had this hand and body lotion thingy which we took and applied.. since its free.. and freeflow. haha kae we not that kiasu until squeeze alot.. just what we need. haha

then went to lot 1 cause i had to buy some stuff from popular and new go out-shoes. mine apparently came apart.. and i had to wear my grandma's sandals for 2 days.. haha.. and my mum just can't stop laughing at me. = haha..

i've finished my craft! for the dvbs kids.. for the first time i'm happy with my craftwork. (because im usually really terrible when it comes to art and craft, my sis is so much better at it. hee)

dvbs tmr! and wed and thurs! yp and p6 chalet on fri! going out with sia and yp on sat! sunday also go to church! and the cambodia team coming back! then on mon, we're off to youth camp! lalala

watched mickey's twice upon a christmas again with samson. its a nice show, i like it very much. i love mickey and gang!

i'll miss you pple!

2006-11-24T20:29:00.000-08:00

we're gonna rock the house! yeah yeah

and they're gone! the Cambodia team - Nat, amanda, lisa, li ling, matt, amos, jordan, aunty waifann, weihong, ming ann and jia ying who will be joining them later.. and so, many pple turned up at the airport to send them off today... although its sad that they have to leave, but they're leaving for a good cause! to experience the Lord's hand at work in another country.. and its definitely an eye-opener for them! i wonder when it will be my turn..... haha.. hopefully when i'm older and my mum allows..

and so there was the hugging here and there and saying of the bye byes.. nat and i shedded a few tears.. cldn't control.. but later we had to stop if not.. we'll have puffy eyes.. haha.. and this amanda arh.. she was so high lah! haha.. i'll definitely miss them all.. hope they'll have a really wonderful and safe trip! Do uphold them in your prayers! =D they'll be back on the 3rd.. and then on the 4th, ITS YOUTH CAMP!!!! =DDDDD

i wanted to hang out at the airport but it seemed that no one was going to.. so left for home with nat's parents.. it was raining and i felt so sleepy.. came back and watched flushed away with samson and sam. quite nice and funny.. haha

homework wise... still manageable i guess.. as long as you do some each day, it shld be pretty alright. well thats what i'm doing.. and i gotta start revision already.. don't want to flunk all my diagnostic tests at the start of next year = olevels.. the nightmare is nearing..

tmr's sat!

the beauty of Christian love. the beauty of God's love. =)

YAY

2006-11-23T18:52:00.000-08:00

phews! ROD is over! and it was such great fun! for me at least.. heehee.. really hope the sec4s did enjoy it.. i know some did =) and to know that you people enjoyed it is a great encouragement to me to know that the comm's efforts have not gone to waste. haha and hope you all like the gifts... =)

and i really thank God, for the weather, for the strength, for the spirit of thanksgiving and encouragement i had, for the smooth running of the activities and everything! without Him, I am nothing, really nothing.

ytd i shouted until my throat almost burst-ed! haha.. because of the heavy rain in the afternoon which cooled us all down after a whole morning of amazing race around sentosa! it was so hot! and when i went home, my face was so red that i seemed like i'm blushing... hahaha.. yay i enjoyed the waterbombs where we just went mad and high! everything was fun! and i had fun sabo-ing pple who came to nat and my station just after the merlion.. i made them do so tiring stuff.. muahahahahaha... XD

went to munch a lil with weini, mag, lipui, soomin and yunyi at lot 1 for dinner.. and we talked and laughed so loudly! haha soomin and pinky! =D haha

oh and today.. nothing much.. had a really good night's sleep.. body aching everywhere because i carried so many heavy stuff ytd... my legs are aching the most..after the running here and there. LOL

to all the p6s, just give thanks in everything yah? i know sometimes its hard esp when they're not up to your expectations or your parents ( which is normally the reason why.... ) but you'll need a positive spirit in order to look at everything in a positive way. the journey of you kid-life is abt to end soon.. Welcome to teenage life! either you love it or hate it. chooes the way you want to. and i tell you loving it is so much easier and nicer. =)

off to do homework! sianed. tmr go airport to send the cambodia pple off! i'll miss you pple!

DEEDUM

2006-11-20T02:37:00.000-08:00

haha nat's at my house for sleepover now! and she, sam and i have been laughing like mad pple!! =D deedumdeedee... we're going to stay up the whole night (hopefully). the time now is 2:37am. haha...

HIGH HIGH HIGH!

seeking you as a precious jewel
Lord to give up, I'd be a fool.
You are my All in All.

i feel like dancing!

2006-11-15T21:25:00.000-08:00

weini soomin haziz me nat weiqin and amirul! =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY KOH HUI PING AKA MY LAOPO AND CHERRY TREE DEAR. I LOVE YOU! <3!!!!

deedumdeedee.. had choir this morning.. and i was like in a rush.. had to bring so many stuff! after choir, went to "surprise" emmy! together with natty. haha... gave her the freshly baked cupcakes.. yummy yummy kae.. hee.. and presents... then we sat on her comfy sofa and talk talk.. and watch tv.. haha.. then ate maggi mee or meehoon.. do amaths and eat cheeseballs and chachos! WHEE! hahaha.. i enjoyed myself. hope you two did. =D

hee i very excited leh.. i dunno why. cause after next week, no more choir and ROD will be over! haha.. no more worries.. lalala! then i can look forward to DVBS and youth camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the party don't stop! hahaha.

the reccee the choir COM did on monday was super fun XD heehee.. i sure enjoyed myself.. love com members! and all the funny moments we had.. and the places we went just to plan the whole game for our beloved choir members and our sec4s. =D Pray that it will not rain on that day and that we'll all have fun! Thank you Lord for the strength you've provided me.

tmr got meeting for the sec 1 orientation.. busy busy..

oh yah homework.. haha am doing some everyday.. hopefully i'll TRY to finish before nov as much as i can.. all my literature.. = haha amaths almost done.. emaths left questions i dunno how to do and graphs.. eng left report writing.. and more more more... lalala...

oh no now im in trouble!

A beautiful Prayer

2006-11-11T10:51:00.000-08:00

Ephesians 3:14-21

For this reason i kneel before the Father, from whom His whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And i pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

mental block knock knock

2006-11-09T10:34:00.000-08:00

mickey's my friend. i love mickey. hee

i dunno why but i'm having some kind of mental block now. like i have alot of stuff to do but i just can't seem to know what i'm doing... and i feel like i'm rushing for something.. and i'm breathless.
haven't been sleeping well the past 2 nights either.. partly because of my nose.. and partly because i keep tossing and turning.. having that uncomfortable feeling.. no idea why.

just want to settle choir ROD stuff ASAP. and that everyone will have fun! really have fun...

watched step up today... not as nice as i thought it would be... like.. it didn't really kind of grasp that kind of make me wanna dance feeling... hahaha.. but it was okay lah i guess.. haha.. i wanna watch flushed away! and loads more! haha

tell me if i need to stay strong for my friends... yes i need to.

busy busy next week.. and i'm trying to touch at least some homework each day. there's lots to do... lots to do.. i need inspiration!

PRAY. oh Lord.. sometimes its so hard...

i love mickey! i want to watch mickey!

looking in your eyes

2006-11-06T13:06:00.000-08:00

I WANT CHANGE BLOGSKIN! haha

shall go blogskin hunting already... hahahahaha... gonna take me a long long time. =D

and i'm bored. of course i'll be... i'll be home doing hmwk the next 2 days.. lalala...

till then, tata!

i'm so sorry

2006-11-05T20:01:00.000-08:00

something's been bothering me the whole day. and i've been thinking.

and after much thought, i know whats best.

perhaps someday somehow. just wait and see

thank you sia for that nice cheesetart! =) it was yummy-licious!

had a small gathering at jiten's house today. yummy food! haha! and had fun!

busy busy holidays....

that brother bear song is getting to me again....

i wonder again

2006-11-03T21:57:00.000-08:00

almost a week has gone by... so fast! let me see what i've been doing the whole week...

mon: did some work and visited yvonne.
tues: stayed at home the whole day, other than fetching samson to and back frm sch, and slacked. got do hmwk la.
wed: leadership workshop the whole day ( FUN! ) and helped out at church at night
thurs: leadership workshop till 12:30 ( FUN AGAIN!) , went lunching with dolly and fungkim, went home and helped out at church at night.
Fri which is today: had choir in the morn, and went out with mum, sam, samson and the maid in the afternoon.

so you see, been a pretty busy 1st week for me already, and i wonder what the following weeks will be.

oh and yah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA! (teo) =)

i seriously don't feel like doing anything now, and i wonder where to go from here... haha the leadership workshop was fun.. much more fun than expected.. haha.. only thing, there was NO food during teabreak, and dolly and me were so disappointed. HEE.. but lunch was good as usual! haha! the games were good! haha.. good good good!

lalalala.. i'm not exactly feeling very high now.. in fact, i'm feeling rather low and i tink i know why but dunno why too.

you chose to let me go, i have nothing more to say. and i really wonder if you'll be there to lend me your shoulder when i really need someone.

because times when i needed someone so badly, you weren't there.

have i gotten over? i dunno. it seems like i have.. but it seems like i haven't.

NEVERMIND, its not important.

laugh laugh laugh

2006-10-30T23:13:00.000-08:00

haha taken on the last day of sch after the concert. Jiten is the THORN among the ROSES. hee...

i love 3L1!

more pics to come.. hahaha..

tell you what happened to me today. I GOT LOST! hahahahha...
the details are pretty long.. anyway, frm serangoon i ended up in punggol, when i was supposed to head to ang mo kio. so i took a 1 hour 30min bus journey just to end up in ang mo kio. heehee.. i really blur blur.. haa.. due to some miscommunication and me trying to be road smart. nvm.. i just felt really sian on the bus. hahaha...

accompanied von to study.. though its just a short while only. JIAYOU YVONNE! you can do it! HUGS!

holidays are here! deedumdeedee... i'm on a watching dvd and vcd spree!!! =D

alot of things to say, but as usual i can't express. polar express. haha nvm out of point. lol

holidays!

2006-10-29T16:28:00.000-08:00

thats the 8 beauties once again! taken on 25 oct. =)

last day of sch was really fun! and its kinda sad that holidays are here too.. because of many reasons. Firstly, it will be the sec 3s' last year in our current sch building as we'll be moving to a holding campus next year as the current one undergoes PRIME. Secondly, olevels are next year! next year you know! next year!! = Thirdly, i just got that kind of feeling that probably many things will change... i dunno.. i dun quite like changes.. Fourthly, just look at the amt of homework we have the the amount of revision we have to do.. holidays aren't going to be that enjoyable.. Haha..

But.. i'm also kinda happy that holidays are here... oh well.. just a mixture of feelings. haha

last day of sch.. last day of sch.. took many pictures! HUITING AND JITEN PLEASE SEND ME THE PICTURES!!!!! haahhaha... went really high that day! and had fun emcee-ing with benjamin! so funny larh.. but it was like a mad rush that day.. i was deadbeat when i reached home. haha.. morning had graduation ceremony for sec 4s... then after that had to stay back for rehearsal and at night was the farewell concert.. i thank God for all the strength He provided me. and that i remembered to go to Him in prayer when i was all frustrated and nervous. and it really helps. Prayer works wonders! =)

now i'm wondering where i should start. probably i'll go visit yvonne tmr... drop by and say hi. haha.. and start on homework.. busy busy holidays... sighs..

ALL THE BEST TO THE SEC 4s!!! PRAYING FOR YOU ALL! =)
ALL THE BEST TO THE ALEVEL PEOPLE TOO!! JIAYOU!!

i AM missing you

2006-10-22T20:33:00.000-07:00

lalala. i learned that from you. HAHA

one more week before sch ends. i'll miss you people. thinking about olevels next year... =\
got to start preparing already... how "nice"..

signed up for youth camp lerh! =D deedumdeedee..

i want to chop off my nose! its irritating!! because i guess the haze irritated it. and its very irritated. haha... used up so much tissue paper today.. haha..

hmm i wonder what will inspire you....

INSPIRED

2006-10-20T21:45:00.000-07:00

attended a student leaders worshop the past 2 days and it was really nice! it was a follow-up from the one we had in june. haha and we had alot of food to eat!! WHEE =D well.. that was what most of us were doing throughout the workshop.. haha how nice to munch and work at the same time. heehee... we did a couple of stuff.. watched a movie called akeelah and the bee that was really meaningful and helped us see a different type of leadership. then we taught each other sections of this chiiimm book called ' The servant as leader'. well done everybody! haha and on day 2, we practically did many discussions on different questions and we envisioned how we wld lead bpghs to greater heights.. and it was nice sharing the memories we have in the sch. Wenjie and Dolly came up with this cute acronym.

Bukit
Panjang
Grooms
Healthy
Students

haha! and yah.. i will definitely miss the sch alot.. miss me too kaes. hahahahahaha

i leave you with this :
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small doesn't serve the world. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

student leaders jiayou! students jiayou! BP I LOVE YOU!

actually

2006-10-18T21:28:00.000-07:00

actually i've got alot of things to say but on second thoughts, maybe not.

please don't let your results get you down, and in fact, PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER and work harder! which reminds me : Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game.
we're all in this together! we'll all work hard together!!!

i dunno what to say abt my results but i really just thank God and it is by His grace that i've gotten what i've gotten. pretty much average... except amaths larh which is like expected... so nvm. and no more comparing. no more no more, please pple, no more. thank you (:

feeling a lil sad as i think abt moving to the holding campus next year and leaving the school... din realise that i have actually left quite alot of memories of the sch in my mind already... hope campfire will be fun! =D cant wait to go high and real high. haha..

i simply have no idea what i shld say.... this post is like random and feeling-less. sorry to bore you if you're reading... hahaahahaha

WHY SHOULD I WORRY - by billy joel. nice song. NO WORRIES!

oh and Happy birthday NORINE!

garh!

2006-10-16T21:09:00.000-07:00

back to sch again after the 3 marking days... and yes, to get back our results! how nice!

Thank God i've learnt to give thanks. =)

things are looking pretty fine now as i think of just 2 more weeks of sch and its over! sadly, we'll be moving.. as our current building goes on PRIME. and there's a campfire on the last day of sch! so cool! haha amirul was just asking me to perform for the campfire.. and we cld like sing a duet or smth.. haha.. then i rmb sec 1 orientation campfire.. so fun especially when we all just ran around the campfire in circles dancing to the music. I CAN'T WAIT TO GET HIGH =D

hmms.. i dunno how to describe what i'm feeling now, but i'm back to the feeling of movies and stuff.. my disneyland. haha.. feel like watching the cartoon dvds i have when holidays starts.. hopefully with my sister's company.. late till the night.. that day i watch the incredibles. ohh mann dash is super cool.. haha okay.. so random. my sis wants to be dash, i wanna be elasticgirl.. while my bro can be jack jack. so there's left mr incredible and violet. actually i wanna run on water too. hee

and jet suggested a super cool thing to do.. like run frm cck all the way to lucas's house in amk one day.. picking up elsia.. david.. and i dunno who else along the way.. but i'll like just reach there the next morning.. while the rest can spend the night at lucas's house. get it? i just feel like running.. and running.. and running.. to a faraway place where i'll meet the stars, the lush green pasture and.. oh nvm, i'm into my dreams again. haha

i've got high sch musical feeling again. =D

emily, i'll meet you under the cherry tree at 12am! i'll be late though because i need time to gel my hair. (emily's the girl, im the guy) heehee.. rmb you're meeting nat frm 9am to 10am. the rest of the time is mine. so i'll see you there. bu jian bu san. =)

alert! exams over!

2006-10-10T21:36:00.000-07:00

whees! IM SO HONOURED AND PLEASED TO INFORM YOU THAT MY EOYS ARE OVER!!! =D

jiayou to those who are still having! it'll be over in a while (:

Go the distance

i have often dreamed, of a far off place
where a hero's welcome, would be waiting for me
where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face
and a voice keeps saying, this is where i'm meant to be
i'll be there someday, i can go the distance
i will find my way, if i can be strong
i know every mile, will be worth my while.
When i go the distance i'll be right where i belong

Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate
Though the road may wander, it will lead me to you
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime, but somehow i'll see it through

And i won't look back, i can go the distance
And i'll stay on track, no i won't accept defeat
Its an uphill slope, but i won't lose hope
Till i go the distance and my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart.

Like a shooting star, i can go the distance
I will search the world, i will face its harms
I don't care how far, I can go the distance
Till i find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms

I will search the world, i will face its harms
Till i find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms...

i can go the distance.

i love bananas!

2006-09-24T22:13:00.000-07:00

its like four days to the start of exams. ending on the 10 of oct. a day just before natty nat nat's birthday! =D

meanwhile, everybody jiayou! jiayou! must be so stressed right.. rmb must learn to relax.

been doing amaths the whole afternoon! i'm so sleepy already!

we can do it!
i love my bro. he's so cute. he can do the chicken dance! although it looks a lil weird when he gets excited! haha. and i love my sis too. girl girl jiayou for PSLE!

high school musical songs are still in my head. when there was me and you.

till then. tata!

though i can't

2006-09-19T20:56:00.000-07:00

i just wanna wish everyone ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR EOYS!

to the sec 4s, ALL THE BEST IN MUGGING FOR YOUR OLEVELS!

to the pri 6s, ALL THE BEST FOR PSLE!

to the alevel peeps, ALL THE BEST TOO!

i'm so gonna do well. yeah, in my dreams lah har. haha but i will try my extreme extreme best!

God's grace will carry us through. (:

receive from Jesus, Fountains of Compassion.

little april shower.

2006-09-15T16:48:00.000-07:00

i'd be lying if i said that i've forgotten abt us too.

like a wave the ocean just can't control

2006-09-10T19:38:00.000-07:00

HEY

haha so fast the sept holidays are over. how nice! and tmr its back to sch. =

my holidays have been fine. let's see...

monday : had choir and went out in the afternoon.
tuesday : had bio in the morning, followed by a zoo excursion, and met von and samie wamie at ps.

wednesday: watched HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL in the morning!! I LOVE IT! and headed to sentosa with family for a short vacation.

thursday: spent the whole day at sentosa and didn't see brandon ( as he said he was there ). haha. and took mrt home at night, while my family stayed on. had choir the next day you see.. early morning.. and the carpet at the hotel was making my nose all ohh my.. and i was sick! bad bad sorethroat. haha. so went home to get a good rest.

friday: had choir, dan came home and finished up my zuo wen. and dunno what i was doing la.

sat : had lunch at pastamania with the netballers, captain ballers and soccer ballers. yums yums, ate so much! dan headed for yp. and had a nice game of captain's ball after a loooonnng time. hee

sun: church in the morning, then went lot 1 with family. and had piano after coming home for an hour. and now im here slacking! and groaning and moaning that its sch tmr. =

hsm songs are stuck in my head, but i have to say its a really nice nice one! and how i wish life was like music. wheee.... dreams again.

and who is this person taggin on my blog saying you're an angel. HAHA pls reveal yourself!

and on 2nd sep, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATT!

8 sep, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUEYEE!

10sep, HAPPY BIRHTDAY AUDREY!

12 sep, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE!

we're all in this together!

we're all in this together!

2006-09-03T10:29:00.000-07:00

I love bethesda amk netball team! consisting of the VERY PRETTY GIRLS.

* shiting, carena, audrey, claudia, chloe, natalie, elsia, faith, amanda, kerriann, yvonne, lisa and me! =D

and our manager aunty akiko!! wheee!!

we were awesome!

haha.

i'd say.

2006-08-31T21:49:00.000-07:00

maybe i'll be like the suyuan in the joy luck club. I'll be killed by my own thoughts.

been rainy all the day long, and its so nice to sleep in this kinda weather. haha. reached sch before 7 today to get the food delight stuff ready. glad to know that most of my food pple were in the canteen already. =D and thank you girls, for your efforts. I really appreciate your co-operation which made my job so much easier. Thank You, azimah, diyana, atiqah, nat, emily, fanghui, evonne, mas, nadia, aminah, azmira, amalina, jaslin, faith, yizhen, michelle, amanda and did i leave anyone else out? oh and of course the whole of 3L1 bellyjeans! haha and the guys who helped out on wed and to jiten for organising the whole thingy. HAHA im so proud of you pple! and the food we had was yum yum! YUM SENG and HOTDOG!! XD haa..

daisies... holidays have started. frm today onwards. and my whole week is PACked and i say PACked. surprisingly, not as much homework as usual... still manageable i guess. God is gracious! He knew i'll be so busy, so He lightened my load. =) a pity i don't get to help out at sunshine camp though. because of, nevermind. and i cannot imagine who much we have to chiong after sept holidays because its EOYs!

will you be there to lend me your shoulder if i should shed any tears?

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

teacher's day!!

2006-08-30T22:09:00.000-07:00

haha i dun really know what to post for now. just that super busy days have been going by. XD

everything's almost settled for food delight tmr! cant wait! and there's 6B gathering on friday! =D and then, fellowship games on sat! and after which, would be grandma's birthday celebration!

finished wrapping my beautiful chocolates for the teachers.. haha..

feeling oh so high nowadays.

and i have a nice version of beauty and the beast.. very catchy. thanks to amanda's (loh) disney refresh CD! =D

As you mind your earthly duties, keep Heaven in mind.

2006-08-25T21:35:00.000-07:00

do you think its easy for me as well?

do you think that i've never felt that way before?

do you think i had someone who made me feel like they would listen?

look you're really not alone. we all go through different stages in our life that will either bring us up or pull us down. you know how much i really wish to help? because i can feel your pain, i've experienced similar situations before.

i'm sorry i can't change her or the way she feels or the way she treats you, maybe she is going through a different stage in her life. moodswings? maybe.. i don't know.. i know you're upset at things that happen, like you try so hard, used to enjoy friends and now its a burden to you. do you know that i've felt that way before? it struck me so hard, i wondered where my friends went to. just because of some misunderstanding and well i dunno how to phrase it, something went wrong, which ended up getting 4 pple hurt. and i was shocked and hurt of course. it took me awhile, and alot of internal struggles to get myself out of it. and when i learnt to look at things more positively, it worked for me. i wonder if it'll work for you.

it takes alot of strength, alot of determination, alot of patience and alot of LOVE.

and i know how homework and everything just piles you down.. no matter how, you just cant seem to get them cleared. and you have so many responsibilities and yah! piano.. i know how it feels... well, i cannot make homework any lesser for you, i cannot take over ur responsibilities, i cannot play the piano for you or do your theory homework, but i can just tell you one thing. that you are capable of accomplishing all that you need to do. because, GOD MAY SEND A LOAD, BUT HE NEVER SENDS AN OVERLOAD. everything God has for you, He knows you have the strength and can find the strength in Him to do so. (:

i want you to be strong, really strong and i mean really strong. the days ahead may become even tougher, esp when we enter sec 4. and sec 3 is a time we build up our friendship that we may be there for each other, and not to compare results. results are one thing, it shld not affect our friendship in any way. maybe we should come up with this rule, that we should not ask each other what marks we get for any test. haha because you've done ur best, its either you improve or maintain.

i really wish i could help you but this is all i can do. to listen and to care. because you're my friend, and i love you.

enjoy camp!! (:

hope

2006-08-21T09:38:00.000-07:00

Be as hopeful as chicken little. stay strong

Todayisanewday. =)

I still miss obs! i miss cookies!!

i love OBS!

2006-08-20T20:24:00.000-07:00

I'm back! Tada! and i look like i haven't washed my face for dunno how many centuries.. HAHA serious la! i'm really tanned! although i applied sunblock but i still turned out like this. but, its good. haha

oh mann, really miss the wild, really miss my watch: cook aka cookies!, really miss sleeping at the windy beach, really miss KAYAKING!!!! really miss pitching tents in the dark, eating our very own cooked food, the land expedition, my first powder bath, and times my watch and i were laughing at the same thing with someone ignorant of whats going on. haha, OBS was so fun!! overall kayaking was the best! it was a great achievement the whole mobile B made! i like what jianhui has on his msn, The sun is strong, the current is strong, but we are stronger.

totally agree with that, thru this whole camp, we've all realised that we're stronger that what we think we are. its a really good camp, really really good. i love cook!

and at times i enjoyed myself, i thank God that i did not forget that God was with me all the way, and has given me such a wonderful time. Thank you Lord for the good weather too. (: